i want to fly, but is crawling better?

Hope it'll be more interesting today cos we'll be going to the office later.

yesterday was a tired+moody+restless+emo day. i hate/love ytd. cos moody day equals...running. & that explains the 30mins of running. i was still able to run after that 30 mins but i stopped because it suddenly striked me that i havent finish calling the freshies. reached home at 11.20pm & started poking my house phone; still perspiring...alot. SHIOKNESS.

i thought about lotsa stuffs. from friends, to team, to work, to future, everything. told you it's an emo day. I wanted to give up when people make comments. i feel stupid. ROAR. this is not michelle. michelle is determined to do her best, has lots of perserverance, is a perfectionist. ROAR.

knowing that we need to train the hong kah sec students (N.Tech) for our sip, we tried to find ways to make it interesting as we thought that they will be easily distracted & will not listen during training. but we're wrong. they completed our handouts when we were going through the ppt. they were able to answer questions & were very very very enthusiastic. Everybody participated in role-playing & i could see them enjoying themselves. best of all, positive feedbacks by the students & their teachers(:

training with the freshies later. am quite excited, but not so cos we'll have to start from basics. basics are boring, but they're the foundation to make us better. the stronger our foundation of our basics, the better our techniques. ok, i'm obviously trying to convince myself that basics are fun. :/ i want PTs. i want PT to start soon!! i need to change my mindset. i really need to. & yes i want to move forward. i want to do stuffs i see on videos. stay strong & hold on. kenken, we still have our dateline to meet.

hey girls, it's not that i dont want to meet you all. But i'm really busy. When i'm free, you're working. Sent sms over to ask if you're free, but in the end nobody replied. & now sam says it's pointless to reply cos everytime when i ask you all if you're free but i dont meet up? it hurts. yes, i admit there's once because there was a last minute work. i need to study 0900-1730 from mon-fri. after that i've cheerleading. sat & sun, most of the time work, sometimes home resting. do you think i'm enjoying? NO. it really hurts to see such comments),:

off to do logbook & nap. :x 2 years ago, a guy plucked 3 red flowers...

http://villageworks.cartmomo.com/

break pls?

Akane is not feeling well... however decided to sent 4/28/2008 9:30 AM:
I want my ferwell gift is you all to be in top3 again for next Nationals.

BLAZERS, can we do it? ),:

many things to talk about. mostly emo stuffs. It's not solely about the team. It's part of everything. I'm sick and tired of all the stress. I'm tired. Really am. Can someone please help me and guide me out?

SIP

people

girls

guys

blazers

sleep

weight

flying

ROAR!!!

training secondary school kids were fun though. i really should have took early childhood. i'm regretting it now. running for 30mins feel SHIOK!

mindset

sometimes i think i accept alot.

sometimes i feel i'm timid.

sometimes i wana voice it out.

sometimes i hope i can control everything.

sometimes i wish i have more time & man-handling skills to correct people's mindset.

but no, i cant. i'm trying hard to. & when i thought i did, no...i start to hear things that upset me again. yes i know people can be soft at heart but harsh at words, but what's the point when you're hurting somebody else & you jollywell know it?

i'm not saying that you are wrong. you are right..IN SOME WAYS, not everything. & yes, you know you're not right at everything. but dont you see it? it makes ppl feel that you're arrogant, self-centered & bossy. i'm not shooting at you. i'm not trying to do anything but just hope that you do reflect & think about what you've done the past few days/weeks.

& so what if people are teaching the wrong things. you said it yourself that different people have different ways of teaching. yes, it maybe wrong. correct them in a nice/pleasant way then.

ROAR.

recruits

today marks the end of cca recruitment. we've hit our target. please thank me for crapping with so many people & doing + saying things to lure them in. LOL. okae, yes..luring in is one thing. but whether they will turn up for training is another. but personally, i feel that creating awareness will already help alot in bringing people in. GUYS. BLAZERS ARE DEPRIVED OF GUYS. we girls are strong...but there's always a limit for girls, and that...i agree although i'm a base/going to flyer. WHAHA. oh oh oh, i did 2-2-1 on thurs. my first attempt of 2-2-1 shoulder stand...during recruitment. thanks to zhiliang. PS: he clashed our training. after that during training again. this time was pop-up. & & &, i learn b-toss too - as a base. nope i'm not complaining. but from learning b-toss as a base, i can correct my flyers too...& from there i can learn too right?(((:

- haziq tahan-ing

-mark's attempt

-mine with so many assist. ROAR. they did let go for like 3 sec ok.

-tumble tumble

-mark -mr bean??

-mr bean fell with his child?

-one extra who's not lying at the centre. LOL.

-guess who?

-larry's new house.

NDP uniform. erm...NOT CONFIRMED. & we're bad models as we wore it over with our training attire.

- full uniform 2. i know i look stupid.

-look at the length of the skirts. & & &, dont you think it looks like an umbrella?

-joy with uniform 1

- mark looks like he's gonna play some water sports with that life jacket. LOL.

i miss my girls. i miss them badly):

:D :D :D hard work paying off

HAPPY yo!

Decided!!! says:
I will teach you some new stants
Decided!!! says:
middle top
michiemichie tosses says:
=)
michiemichie tosses says:
YAY
michiemichie tosses says:
thanks
michiemichie tosses says:
but i must start from basic
michiemichie tosses says:
progression
michiemichie tosses says:
ken, larry & mark are teaching me
Decided!!! says:
Top person need POWER
Decided!!! says:
you need to train arms and legs
Decided!!! says:
jump higher
michiemichie tosses says:
yes yes
michiemichie tosses says:
i'm training everyday
michiemichie tosses says:
yeap yeap...the guys said that to me too
Decided!!! says:
skill also need
Decided!!! says:
watch more videos
michiemichie tosses says:
yes yes

ROAR

wanted to post pics. but lazy lar. my eyes are closing. i am physically & mentally tired. i cant wait for PT. i hate jumps. ROAR. cca recruitment is fun. sip is boring, at the same time packed. i cant discipline myself from doing things that i'm assigned to): erm...BYE.

random

ok, so today was my first day of 9.00am-5.30pm. briefing was super long & dry. i was doing some catching up with christine(: i miss sch alot. really alot. but i cant seem to get it back in me...yet. i'm suppose to search for videos about customer service. ok, i did. i found alot. many were stupid and irrelevant. some were funny but too vulgar. so finally, decided on miss swan. ROAR. not bcos of the past few days we've been talking about ms swan ok, but it just suddenly pop into my mind about the macronalds one. when i turned back, christine & nadiah were watching ms swan too. hah. searched TONS of videos & i suddenly have the urge to serach for cheerleading videos. :x

opened new tabs & searched for b-tosses. & that was when i realise why i joined cheer. most of my secondary friends know that i've put in alot for basketball. & i guess many were shocked when i stopped. yes, i wanted to continue very much. i wanted to continue in tp. & i always thought i will. but no, i stopped. no, i havent stop playing basketball. but i realise there's a limited stuffs u can get & learn from playing basketball. it's a passion. i agree, totally the same as what i'm having now in cheer. but there's a difference in the passion. words cant describe it. there's many things i wana learn, i wana try, i wana do. but i cant. i realise i blame e others for why cant i do it. but no, i must have the guts to do so too. very random, yet true. because i always stop myself from progressing..JUST BECAUSE I DONT DARE. & if you dont dare, you''ll be stuck there. cos u dont dare, so u cant do it.

videos of b-toss straight, pipe, toe-touch, back tuck, full lay-out, lay out twist & the list goes on. can i be one of them? hah. maybe in the sea yo! :/

RUNNING tml. i see my full abs yo, with a lump of fats hanging there. LOL. gonna shed them off. ROAR. run, swim, whatever it is to cut down my fats.

yes, i admire thin & skinny ppl. & no, i'm not going to be aneroxic no bullimic.

- my dumb fall...just freaking because i was scared. serve myself right for falling so hard! if you realise, my feets were already on his hand & i dumbly sat)): ROAR

random

continuation

SLTC pictures

- REDS. i seriously cant see myself.

- the pledge

- GROUP 1!

VJC

- VJC pyramid.

TCC performance

- oops, that's my face

-i can do lib k!!

- andrea looks suffocated. :/

- JIA YOU haziq!

SENTOSA

- on the way to sentosa

): & ytd i was too tired to do my abs ex. gonna do double today. ROAR. & that's gonna be double aches. should i jog tml after class? anyway, 9am to 5pm everyday. ROARRR!!

& finally it's the end of performances. real training is back. wooohoooo!

TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC CCA RECRUITMENT 23rd April - 25th April! JOIN CHEERLEADING!!

FLOOD - to be continued

SENTOSA

-braces girl((:

PERFORMANCE

-joy jumps.

-competing pushed out big tummy! michelle winner. :/ i think i shld compete with minyi, not joy. -.-

-joy's fave cross.

SAKAE

BUGIS

Random supper day

-just wake up face.

-mark left me there):

-LIB OK!

i've got rotten right face): this time round, i was trying to do a back hand spring/back walk over but i stupidly unlock my arm while ken was helping me over. ROAR. & my face rubbed against the track))): hui rong le.

wenta vjc today. as usual, i got lost. & this time, i admit that i'm a noobshit. i alway know that vjc lies somewhere at the stretch of the road where there are many other schs. i left my house at 8.40am. usually it takes 30-45 mins from my house to parkway. this time, it took me 2hours+ to reach. first i took 14 to siglap area, & then changed bus 155...pass by vj once. i took 31 back cos i overshot and ended up in parkway...twice. FED UP....got to vj by legs. ROAR. & when i was outside vj bus stop, still thinking where the hell was vj, a bus stopped & i went up to ask the uncle where is it. the moment he pointed to the building, i felt retarded. :/ VJ kids were good(: impressed with their dance & stunts & wow-ed by thier attitude.

quite last min thing to decide to go to sentosa. FUN lar. i wanted to try b-toss back tug...but not with their bases lar. it's their fun camp anyway. hah. but i did 1-1-1. heh heh. with my eyes close. -.- all girls 1-1-1 !!! i was sinking into the soft sea sand when the 2nd person went up. LOL. after that ken shoulder stand on me(((: yes, he flew on me. hah. & he did a front tug. i wanted to..but i ended up doing a front...FALL. lol. i did single base to. feels super weird doing it without shoes, on top of that, in water. hah. willy grabbed my feets & it felt so...awesome? NO! tickish lar. extention was erm...MORE TICKLISH. sorry zhiliang. didnt mean to fall on you. wasnt prepared for that fall too. hah. take care of your neck yo! my ... hurts too ok! so fair! :p changed & wenta had our dinner. super hungry. went over to joy's place cos his bro had a bbq birthday celebration. HOME.