CHRISTMAS!

i know..christmas is over. i just didn have time t wish everybody a happy christmas. besides, my hp bill is going........& tt's why i didnt reply/sms some of my frens. i wasnt in much mood t do s too though i had quite some fun.

i met leon t watch alvin&thechipmunks at tm b4 he book in f his guard duty. yea, kinda saddening t kena (reserve) guard duty on christmas day, so he had t book in on christmas eve. & e purpose was t sleep in f one night, & e next morning he can book out aft breakfast. he actually needed t stay in f christmas cos some idiot didnt come, but he lied t his sergeant saying tt his gf was flying off on christmas. -.-

& so aft e movie, wenta pipi's bbq at pasir ris park. had fun talking t them((: ! leon went off & ltr sarah, gilbert & i wenta gilbert's fren hse t wait f his other frens t get ready, while planning f a countdown location. in e end...we count down at chill lounge(a not very nice place with quite a handful of ah-peks) but proceeded t blue sth bar. opened bottle & drank quite abit bcos SARAH TOK SABO ME): . she knows very well tt i'm slow at 5-10 & tt idiot purposely play til s hiong! luckily, our song came & we started singing, otherwise i'm gonna go home dead drunk!

reached home, chit chatted with leon on e phone cos he cldn slp & refuse t tell me e reason why....

went t town & recieved my christmas present. & so...finally i know why tt dumbass cldn slp e last night. he got my presie online & e seller cld only meet him at 5.45AM on 25/12/07 when he is in his camp. & so...he asked his fren t collect it frm e seller. -.- finallyyyy i know what's e 5.45 is abt!

-my present, but in orange!

watched iamlegend & walked ard a lil & went back hm.

was supposed t meet stan(not stanly) aka my xiaoxiaolaogong bt tt guy fell aslp & by e time he smsed me, i was ardy out.

training is GOOD! i can do full extention properly(only if joy was my flyer)!! probly too happy over e achievement & was excited aft training. talked too much & got scolded): . sorry ppl.

i'm still thinkingggg.....

this is a emo post

-ken & i

-my first christmas presents

-coffee club(:

-sis cheryl bought these choco frm japan(:

-me & cy's oneh oneh!

-orchard's christmas lightings

-thanks for always being there.

holidays are....good? i duno.

wenta zouk on sat night t celebrate minyi finally turning 18. yes, finally bcos it's ardy e end of e yr. got her some chocolates with her name printed on it & a happy birthday chocolate. i guess it's kinda sad t eat them. LOL.

met leon at e platform & we got quite a hard time finding e shuttle bus t great world bus stop. memory struck me & ta-daaaa...found it. met minyi & her bf at great world b4 proceeding t e entrance t mit cy & joy.

stanly didn come as he got CHICKENPOX. lol. shld i say he is suay or???

first, he's on block-leave & having chicken pox = not enjoying his leave. however, he shld b booking in ytd f soc test; counted as slightly lucky lar.

minyi's bf is so big size can. LOL. slightly more than a norm DB. haha. i was so shock upon seeing him, leon too. cy had asked minyi's bf & leon t bring their camp mates along. but none brought. LOL. fearing tt cy wld nag....minyi's bf called his frens & psycho them over. in e end...all 6 failed cy's test. -.-

cy asked max along with some of his hockey mates.

no camera so...no photos):

had quite a bit of fun though my head weighed lyk a hundred kilos.

i realise i'm so good at hiding. & soon, it will become a habit. in actual fact, i'm not happy. i'm not contented. & this is e last place i can finally turn t in order t release & show everythg tt is inside. i can be cheerful, i can be happy, i can play like nobody's business. but i'm totally somebody else when i'm alone. yes, it stil hurts. it hurts like hell. it has nv been better. i need so very badly ur concern. it doesnt matter t me how others care or who cares. i'm reali going broke cos i cant stay at home. i think & ponder abt all sorts of thgs. no doubt, mum & dad r nagging bcos i'm seldom at hm. there's too many issues. i force myself not t think, but everythg i do, there's you..

did u reali changed or it's just e commitment?

do u miss me?

did you ever love me?

did i see the wrong things in you?

why did you have t disappoint me?

why did you lied?

why does it hurts so much when we end up like this?

will it be better if you did the wrong things?

why cant i accept tt long relationship needs compromising?

why cant i compromise?

why am i so stubbron?

why cant you compromise & give us another chance?

why cant i accept the fact tt you're gone?

why do i miss you when you dont?

do you still love me?

do you want me back?

why am i regretting?

do you......regret?

ARGH!

i yearn f ur hug, ur kisses, ur simple words. i miss you.

new year resolution

1) 45kg!

2) nationals!

3) good results!

4) HAPPY

5) shld i get over everythg or stil hope tt you'll come back?

GOLDEN COMPASS IS....kinda boring. 6/10. i spent most of my time chit-chattin & looking at other ppl rather den reali watching e show. i uds e storyline but it's just nt my kinda movie. will watch but wldnt wana watch it agn.

met alan & leon at mrt platform which i stupidly sat there & waited f abt 45 mins alone BECAUSE ALAN WAS LATE!! idiot!

met joy at vivo & aft we had our lunch/dinner, stanly came. poor him. got all soaked due t e rain. & he was close t shivering when we saw him. guess it shld b due t e freezing weather outside plus e speed he was on his bike. cy came aft she finished her work. wanted t catch a movie at vivo but due t e overflowing crowd, almost all shows were fully occupied. headed t town while stanly went hm t change as e rain has stopped.

walked ard b4 watching. & aft watching, we wenta coffee club. i wanted t try e mudpie there as they all said tt it was superb. i prefer e one i ate at......e restuarant at marina square. but e mushroom crepe & country pie r nice(: !

reached home at 1am. & due t e amt of caffine i took at coffee club, i finally closed my eyes at 6am!

meeting leon agn ltr b4 he books in, t watch warlords. i wanted quite much t watch tt ytd. but cy wanted t watch golden compass & joy didn wana watch warlords. -.- she went "eeeeeeeeeeee" when i said i wanted warlords.

i received my first few christmas presents frm aunty elizabeth & aunty margaret((: thank you!!

YAY! spirit on the course(standard chrtered) thgy is on my seal list ardy!!!!!! i'm not boasting but i feel proud(: !

-this is sexy ken studying!

xiaogu's bdae celebration at long beach!! e cake is chosen by shyen(: & my first time savouring bamboo clam.

-sis cheryl bought a naval stud f me on her trip t japan(((: ! love it love it LOVE IT!

-this fat cat is sleeping with 4 paws up!

ytd was pretty awesome with lotsa ppl. was supposed t meet joy at bugis cos we both thought tt cy wasnt coming. changed of plans & wenta sch straight aft i was ready t meet e both of them. cy was filling some application form f her t reimburse e cost incurred when she was admitted t hospital f stupid reasons. wad was those stupid reasons?

rmb e tym we wenta club at mos? b4 tt we were supposedly meeting e other blazerians at town f sam's bdae dinner. on tt day, cy ran f e campus relay, aft e relay, due t consuming 100plus (mind you, it was filled with gas) just b4 e race, she had e feel of vommiting (which i guess wasnt vommting but burping cos i experienced it lyk x75314968 times). there were real medics there who saw her behavior/actions & so immdly brought her down t check her blood pressure. as cy had low blood pressure frm young, and aft a long run, obviously e blood pressure went down; but it went abnormally low-35. joy & i waited & waited & i think it's bcos of e number of ppl there & e stupid nurse who kept emphasizing tt she MUST go t e hospital made cy tear alot which cause her bloood pressure unable t increase. e nurse sounded so exaggerating can, like as if she was suffering from fatal illness! no choise, e stupid nurse sent cy t e hospital with me, joy & a lectr accompanying. when cy had her check-up, her blood pressure rose to 80. -.- waste of money & time. yea, it's not my money, her money or anythg, but it's stil waste of e sch's money & e hospital's resourses right? & IT SERIOUSLY WASTED OUR TIME cos we wanted so much t go f sam's dinner as SO many ppl were there, even frances went! i'm not reallly saying tt e nurse is stupid. it's part of her job & i think she reali did her part as a nurse bcos she was v stern. but we all were stil quite pissed with her lar. :p

& so aft e filling in of e form & getting it printed out & signed, we headed straight t bugis t hav our lunch as we were starving. aft lunch, we shopped ard bugis street. initial plan was t get christmas gifts f ppl but we all ended up buying thgs f ourselves.

joy's damage: 3 tops

cy's damage: 5 tops and mascara frm sasa

my damage: 2 tops. 1 dress & a sweater

cy has yet t finish her shopping as she is short of a pair of heels & leggings. it feels so shiok lar!! shopping really kills depression. :x but i bet i'll b reali reali reali broke during e ltr hols): ! met cheryl & her lovey-dovey jashone on & off as they went on/off with us. guess they wanted t pa-tor lar.

met ken at cityhall b4 proceeding t orchard. shopped some more but didn reali get anythg frm there. cheryl & jashone joined us f dinner. this is cheryl's & my first time finishing food fast. not bcos we finish it fast but there were other ppl sharing wit us. i shared a plate of hokkien mee with ken, while jashone had a number of mouthful frm cheryl's hokkien mee. so hahahah....we wldn hav finish our food if it was all by ourselves. :p i had 5 prawns with 2 of e prawns being stared at by 5 ppl while i was having a GREAT time removing it's shells. & i said stared. yes, STARED! jashone even mentioned tt it was "jing dian" t c a girl having tt much difficulties with a prawn!! i hate eating prawns with shells when i'm in public!!!!! i totally lose my "yi tai" ): ! but i was wondering if i have had any "yi tai" when i'm with e blazerians. SHIT! i do not!! LOL. just look at ken's blog): so so so many unglam pics. ok, not tt many but there's one tt will totally win e fugliest contest lar. shld i b proud of it? haha. i'm not reali ps, but 1 dragon-boater was there. wad if he tells others? omg!!!!!

leon & stanly came t find all of us aft they booked out. i thought tt aft their outfield, they will look tanner, in fact they didnt. guess they fought mostly in rain, bcos they said they had mud as their blanket & they swam while slping. lol.

cheryl & jashone left, followed by ken & cy leaving me, joy, stanly & leon. had ajisen f stanly & leon's dinner & me & joy's supper. chit-chatted & went t 85 t pass ken's his ipod. finally saw huimin with everlasting laughters agn! :D went home(: !

jane gave birth t a cute little boy. got t know it only when i saw her frenster. hah. congrats!!

sarah tok, samantha tok, angela tan. please stop working & meet me): ! is it confirmed tt we r celebrating our christmas with peixia on christmas eve? i miss you all lar!

i miss training. i want training. i promise i will train very very very hard bcos my physical is deteoriating aft so much of not running f e past few weeks. i'm trying v hard t master scorpian!!! just a few more inches & there...a perfect one(: ! thanks t jenny!oh, & oso thanks peiming f teaching me t fly confidently but not tt confident yet. haha. thanks justin & mark f being my base & carrying a 48kg flyer! i duno wad t say, but thanks ken, jenny, mark, peiming, justing f allowing me t fly. :D

PS: flying is not an easy job. so dont blame ur flyers.

christine christine. come t me if u hav any probs alright. i'm here. always here(: .

i noe u read my blog but u just didn tell. & i guess u read my blog ytd cos u sounded so not right when we talked last night.

i'm not sure what i'm doing. i'm always thinking if i'm treating you right, if i'm using u as a substitute. so please, excuse me if i threw ur hands away ytd night bcos i'm not sure abt my feelings f u. i'm sorry if i hurt u but i'm certain i wana b friends now bcos i stil miss him, stil think of his presence. i hope u uds.

i dont ask u t wait, but i hope u'll b there when i need u. cos it has been like this for e past 6 yrs. u will appear out of no whr when i needed someone t listen t me cry & nt say anythg. i'm v sure i treated u as a big bro last time, & i hope we will stil b e same f now. i dont guarantee wad will happen t us next time. i dont guarantee e possiblity of us getting tgt. but i feel rather comfortable when i'm with you. i dont need t think of what t tok. besides if we hav got nth t talk, i still feel relax & not tensed or awkward when we look at each other.

thank you for being there f me(:

thoughts

i miss your kisses on my forehead.

i miss the way you would smell my hair.

i miss your kisses on my hand.

i miss your touch.

i miss your care.

i miss the way your lips touch mine.

i miss you squeezing me tightly.

i miss your snoring.

i miss your encouragement.

i miss your lame jokes.

i miss everything.

i miss you calling me your love, your girlfriend, your monkey.

i miss you badly):

i want trainings! cos tt's e only time whr i'm carefree. i <3> they make me wana go back f trainings. they make me feel excited f trainings. they make me once agn happy from the inside thou we spent just 3 hrs tgt.

i'm sorry if you all think tt i'm making use of you. the fact is i'm not. i just feel myself agn when i'm with u all. mark, andrea, joy, ken, cy, minyee, wenmin, felicia, huimin etc etc, you all make me laugh from e bottom of my heart. i realise i am me. i realise i do not have t b a mediacorp actress. i realise everythg tt i'm pondering frm e last 24 hrs were almost close t gone. however, once you all leave, everythg will start agn. whatever it is, i sincerely thank you all for being there for me. i'm sorry if i irritated anyone of u. it's nt easy t let go of sth u hav dearly f close t 1 1/2 yrs.

ok lar, BYE. off t study.

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D-CUP FRISBEE: this is alvina. she is shy(NOT). i took this pic of her cos i find her pose very mermaid-ly kinda. this was taken when i wenta help out f e D-cup frisbee thgy. it was fun & i've learnt sth new too; how to play a real frisbee game.

GRANDMA'S BIRTHDAY: celebrated my grandama's bdae at her hm. we all wanted a bbq f her 79th birthday but nobody picked up e phone when my mama called t book. in e end, we had a simple dinner with lotsa sinful food, especially the cake. it's all covered with wonderful wonderful chocolate! the whole house was so packed tt i cld hardly breathe.
just imagine a 5 room flat with 27 ppl and a dog. -.- & most of e time, e room was not occupied, only e kitchen & living room. we hav t squeeze through literally. the smart ones will sit down & occupy e seats f e entire night, while those who came late(me, mum, sis) found themselves walking all abt, trying t find thgs t do.

-the kids got up the table when they saw e cake.

-my grandma is 79!!!

-my aunty found this thgy which i guess she used it f her halloween yearrrrs ago.

-retard cheryl & cute joy(:

-shyen's beautiful beautiful birthday cupcakes. there's not only 3 lar. just tt these were left f me as i didnt went f her party.

EXPO + TOWN: wenta expo with aunty margaret f e IT show. she bought so many mp3s can! 1 for my sis, 1 for my cousin, 1 for herself & another for her step-son. -.- & tt's not all tt she had bought. she got herself a thumbdrive, a USB hub & other accessories which i cant rmb. met my mum, shyen, jasmine cousin, & cheryl awhile ltr. walked ard john little sale & agn, she bought quite alot of thgs as she was going back t france soon. had lunch/dinner b4 meeting leon at e mrt t town. met joy, cy, nick & stanly at cine & had long john at fareast aft buying tix at lido. watched 30 days of e night (like finally), but it was not so much of what i expected. yes, it was kinda gore, but e story line was kinda predicted - sacrifices & all. wenta HK cafe f supper. i finally reached hm at 2am. LONG DAY.

-camwhoring at long john.

-LOL. i find this pic super cute.

CHEER CAMP: it was not so much of a camp. we were just stayg overnight in sch bcos e bus was coming at 4.30am!! yes you heard tt right, 4.3o am! we had t wake up at 3am in e morning when i finally closed my eyes ard 12.30am. when i woke up, i recieved a sms frm kennethchew & when i replied, he asked me t faster go back slp & he even said goodnight-.- ! sat's training was not bad. leon & stanly came over t watch our rehersals b4 booking in. it was rather awkward knowing tt somewhr, some ppl r staring at us. but this means nth compared t our actual performances. during our actual performances, we still havta bring out our broad wide smiles even if sth goes wrong!

had tons of fun & laughter with joy, minyi & tracy b4 slpin. LOL.

what's the fun? the fun begins.....

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i was not the only crazy one okae!! pls refer below

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there were so much more retarded pics with this kinda hair style, but due to the fuglyness, we hav all agreed not to show so much of it. haha! i think i will win in such contest. LOL!!!

-emo!

STANDARD CHARTERED: did i mentioned tt we got 2nd? i sorta forgot. anyway, ya, we were the 1st runner ups! more pics aft term test!

-yes, we were tt tired. even our vice-captain is laying on e floor!

-i found this sword-lyk-looking ballon on e grd.

-this cute little caterpillar was crawling on my leg while i was sleeping.

i had the time t sleep (like finally) when we were waiting f e bus t go back t sch & during e bus ride. reached sch, bath, go home, died literally.

the day continued aft i woke up at 7pm when i reached home at 3.30pm. dad fetched my whole family + shyen, grandma, aunty margaret, forth aunty, tiffany cousin & son, jasmine cousin t ecp f HK cafe f dinner. ate e same tt i had at town e other day plus a little more. i finally tasted yuanyang(: . there were so much food, my stomach was so bloated tt i cld hardly walk.

-bryan nephew & shyen cousin

GIANT: met cy. supposedly meeting t study but this girl has a sudden urge t chiong t giant t get fbt-.- ! she didnt felt like studying either. joy wanted t join us but due t some reasons, she didnt. bought a pinkish red file(((: ! we studied opp IKEA aft she got her fbts, when aft awhile i come t realise tt we were at raymond's hse void deck. LOL.

-the long train? NO! it's e....erm...what is tt? i forgot what's tt called. shit!

CY came t my hse as e rain refuse t stop but pored even more heavily...... we planned t study somewhr near my hse aft our cds as i didn bring my book. in end, tt girl studied at my hse while i slept. :p she had her fun playing on my com & disturbing shyen too.

VIVO + AIRPORT: met mark aft sch & headed t vivo as he wanted t watch movie. watched heroes on e long bus journey. i felt kinda stupid as we took 65 all e way frm tamp inter t vivo!! but i guess mark has got no regrets lar. cos he had his heroes accompanying. kinda disappointed when andrea called t say tt enchanted was fully occupied. not tt i've not watched it, but it's really worth a 2nd time as it is sosososo CUTE. ran t gv aft we both wenta e toilet t release e excess fluid in our body aft sucha long time in e bus. skipped e idea of watching & slacked at starbucks. we wenta T3 while sendin huiting off f her meeting. it is sosososososososososo pretty!!! you can c this signature thgy oh-so-very clearly! a splendid view lar. aft huiting went off, we ate popeye & wenta mac t study. reason being popeye do not hav internet connetion & mark wants t use his laptop. studied quite abit when huiting joined us. she didnt joined us t study but played mark's psp. -.- headed home soon aft.

i forgot e dates, e day. it's f e sake of my memory yes. but...i've got kinda no mood t think.

ALL THE BEST FOR TERM TEST!!