ulu pandan

ulu pandan ulu pandan ulu pandan. it makes me hungry at first (pandan cake) and then... nvm. great performance by wildcards. They've been called wilcats for quite many times though. lol. Find wildcats familiar? High School Musical - Wildcats is he basketball team. Stunt fest was awesome. did a few cupies, single libs...etc. i forgot what else. thanks to many many people(:

gotta go complete my report now. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

that you

Happy Birthday to you.

long lost me

haven heard abt me for quite some times. ok, there were a few updates, but they are.....hmmm.

anyway, i'm getting better alr. hpt was nt as scary i thought it will be. BUTTT, the aunty opposite my bed is damn noisy lar! even the nurses cant stand her. she'll ask, "what's the time now?" every 3o mins to an hour. she'll call for the nurse for the slightest thing like putting the chair in frt of her. WTH! and the aunty slping beside her even exclaimed loudly "i think if you got maid, your maid will run away in just 2 days!"

i give my deepest sympathy, really. Bcos of her failing memory and age. but she is really demanding. when one of the aunty make her own milo, she said "why you make yourself? stay in bed lar, ask the nurses make for you." like as if the nurses owe her anything?

oh, & my knee had been better. at least e pain is diminishing, almost indiscernible. shall go for xray soon. i'm wondering now how many xrays have i taken. fortunately, there's our school's insurance.(: i'm gonna start learning my jumps all over again!!

ok, i realised tat i've tons of videos, photos to upload. till then. (:

time to change skin!

funny why i still miss you.

michielovesblazers` failing memory): says:
who can i blame? myself...for having too much expectations....maybe?
-Missysho0- smile =) says:
y always blame urself
-Missysho0- smile =) says:
perhaps he do not hav feelings for u .. but is bcos he cannot bear to leave

1 year, 4 days. counting till this feeling ends. will it?

before

i thought that yall are my closest. I thought that yall will be here. I thought.....yes, NOW I MAKE AN ASS OUT OF U & ME. i'm not angry, but the feeling inside, i just dont know how to use words to describe. let's see, just utterly dissappointed. I'm trying VERY hard to be understanding.

&, erm.. ken, i never thought of not wanting to see you. i never thought of not wanting you to visit me. you are a friend. once a close one. Yes i dont like quarrels, who does? But if there's a need, i guess everybody will still do. Quarrels often happen within couples? No, close friends too if you realise. But once everything is cleared, a new friendship develops.

Many thanks to Graham, ZhiLiang, Andra, Christine, Larry's concern. I really appreciate yall. And 3 of you, I've known you only to the coming 9th months.

the inner most

why am i at home?
bcos i was rushing projectS.
bcos i have undone cheer stuffs.
bcos i slept, oh ho...rested at 7.20am & hav to prepare at 7.45am.
bcos my head is still hurting.
bcos i stand up seeing patches.
bcos i read in MSword at least 200%.
bcos of gastric pain.
bcos my head is spinning.

why am i not in the HPT?
bcos i wanna finish my FYP ppt with my group.
bcos i wanna spend more time at home 1st.
bcos i'm freaking scared.

have i told my parents?
so sorry but no.

why?
bcos i dont want to make them worry.
bcos i hate making anyone worry for my retardness
bcos i wanna be independent & take care of myself
bcos i really dont want people to know
bcos i dont want anybody to keep asking if i'm alright
bcos i'm scared.
bcos i am a strong girl.

have i told anyone else?
elder sister bcos i need someone 21 years above and related to me for supervision for admittance.
poh bcos he is full of experience with concussions.
larry, justin, xueli, ken bcos i feel they they ought to know; & will take care of the safety in e team.
suhui, bryan bcos they asked?
kyle and melissa bcos i was asking about the claims.
sarah, samantha, angel, peixia, joy, cherylteo, christine, nadiah...do i need to say more?
graham bcos he acc-ed me for e 1st visit.
zhiliang bcos the rest were talking about it in front of him.
mrs keong bcos......she is my coach & there's a hushhush between us.
melvinheng, sharon, kunrong, xiaoni, kinghung...groupmates. & i didnt appear for Technopreneurship PPT this morning.
silas, i dont know why.

& erm, dont assume stuffs. you'll just be making an ASS out of U and ME. I'll tell you if you ask...nono, if I think that i can . & what's my 'think' criteria? "you wont be agitated and think in my shoes why i didnt tell you by myself."

i see a retarded me.

i still went to school eventhough i had 6 days mc, from friday to wednesday. I still wenta work on weekends with 3/4 of the time sitting down. i rush for assignments everyday till wee hours; catching a rest at 2am earliest and i can dont even sleep. i hate year 3. i hate it. i wanna stop working for now but i dare not breathe a word to my aunty cos i'm creating troubles for her. i want to continue working bcos of the damn economic crisis and i dont want to rely on dad for money bcos he himself neesd it to. I pray and plead that mum can stop gambling. I...RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
i love blazers, but sadly, blazers dont. i keep things to myself or walk away bcos i feel that quarrels might surface and i dont think it'll solve anything, but again, nobody knows and instead, i'm seen as a coward. I protect juniors because i rather face the blame than having them to suffer in shoutings, insults and sarcarstic remarks. I've done DAMN loads for Blazers, but does Blazers appreciate? I've sacrificed even my results for Blazers but now i feel that it's a waste. Whatever it is, i love Blazers, i love to Cheer.
And i still have to go back to school to hand in Blazers stuffs before going to the hpt. HAHA.
Once again, i stress that i still LOVE Blazers.

can somebody lend me their lappie later in e hpt, for a day? can somebody accompany me throughout the stay? my sis is working the next morning and i want her to go home and rest instead of staying with me and worrying most of the time.

'STRESS over assignment, life. when will i have a break?? the day i step into my coffin?'
- melvinheng

:/

Wife is like television (TV), girlfriend is like handphone (HP).

At home watch TV, go out bring HP.

No money, sell TV. Got money, change HP.

Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with HP/

TV is free to watch; but HP, if you don't pay, services will be terminated!!

TV is big, ugly, bulky but still can watch when old; HP is slim, curvy, portable but there is always a newer and nicer model.

sat & sun updates

went to denise's chalet before proceeding to graham's. 2 chalets, both in different parts of pasir ris. Met gary & we cabbed to denise's. Just in time for her to cut cake. Yea, her party started at 6.30 & we reached at 9.30? :/ my bad, so i treated gary for the transport. PS: we took 2 cabs. heh. after millions of years, i finally get to see ben. however we didnt chat much as there were many photo sessions. & when it kinda stopped, gary & I decided to leave to graham's. sorry bros, will meetup alright.
Cabbed from costa to elias. I felt damn dumb walking pass graham's chalet & walked out of that area, thinking tt we were lost. I bet gary felt the same too. Anyway, i thought tt there will be a number of unfarmiliar cheerleaders but i was wrong. Same people doing the 'stunt' fest...but this time instead of amy, simin was made the kangkong. Andra, zl, jen, chaang, xw, zm & gf (eye power), king( i scared i spell his name wrongly), graham, ken, gary, simin, me. After the stunt fest, was so proud of simin & myself. Though it was just for pure fun & entertainment, but personally, i didnt know that i could do a lib or a cupie. Oh...& of cos, one of the greatest satisfaction is.....ken is able to tth me. HAH. ok, we'd passed the dateline long time ago but at least we managed to do it...impromptu-ly.
i thank yall sincerely from the bottom of my heart. It may seem nothing as yall have did it a billion zillion times, but it matters to me cos it's my first!!! heh heh. ok, i'd done my tth with zl before and that was like in may? & tt's like e only successful ones. hello, it's ZL; known for his erm....'mother fucking strength' like what chaang always say? hah. Credits to chaang for ex-lib & zl for cupie. & i swear i didnt know i was on only one hand when he did the cupie until the rest were "ccb-ing & fuck-ing" him. I looked down & "omg!" before e dismount. Of course, not forgetting the rest who tossed & those who 'forced' me to change shoes. I have no intentions to stunt as i was freaking exhausted.
After bath, wanted to sleep but graham shook me up. tt's not all, he pressed all my blue-blacks which cramps my face, but there's one thing that he did gd though...the massage. haha. played a few card games & by the time we started 'dai di', my brain wasnt working. somebody, whom i forgot who, took over for me & i rested....& wnt into quite deep sleep at 4.30am.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE & GRAHAM!

Perf for the newspaper big walk was next at 9am, making us leave at 7.30am. the crowd was not as enthusiastic compared to the hsm. awful gastric problems which i'm still wondering why as i had my breadtalk's sandwich & orange juice. lunched at swensens & i was stoning while eating. my mind was clear, clean, totally blank. Headed for work straight & did nothing at the counter but still a number of sales. If i was awake, i could have reached at least $2000! But i'd rather not do anything cos i was really dyingggggggggg.

I'm supposed to complete my SUPCHN tut but i miss blogging): there's so much more i wana talk about...
Friday forgetting work & went to get presents, sisters gathering, halloween, etc etc.

ok, my head is spinning & i'm meeting mr cupie-simin-longest-man (25.7s) later at np at 10am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRA!