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- zhiliang & mark starting fire.

- larry's very cute cake. lottery paper & money.

-zhiliang is so lucky. but he dont look like he feels like one.

& the game begins.

-flaming vodka?

- can you see the change? LOL.

-they bake this cake for him. so sweet! look at those m&ms & jellybean!

-of cos, the mess after throwing 2 cakes!

went to meet sarah & samantha after SIP yesterday. wanted to go back school to jog but i miss my girls dearly. kinda thick skin cos i went to lucas' chalet quite uninvitedly. my only intention was to meet the girls. LOL. went to parkway to walk around & spent again at cotton-on. GSS will kill me soon. got a dozen of beer for lucas as i felt so paiseh going there empty-handed. watched tv, chatted & then i bbq-ed for the rest all the way. i think i'm so into bbq-ing. LOL. 12am, cake came. & lucas thought there wasnt any & he was so super happy. kept telling me that it's the best birthday as there was no cake. LOL. moreover, there were 2! one is strictly for...smashing. another one is baked by bearbear & another friend for eating, but in the end, it was smashed too after we finished 3/4of those m&ms & jellybeans.

& i tell you the mess they created. OMG. they even wasted 5 cans of beer. -.- so there were 5 guys who smelled like beer, walking around the chalet. poh gave me a lift home. thank you so much man. wa lau, i owe you so much! i promise, suki sushi buffet ok! or you want me top up ur tank full? that one abit expensive. :p we went to geylang to eat dimsum first. :p SHIT, supper. i only ate.....4 or 5 pieces. aiya, i know. excuses. still supper. ROAR.

ok. i wana go shopping. :p i wana go out please. but everybody is studying):

happy birthday ken & suhui(:

so yesterday wasnt that bad. i finally managed to meet ms sim to ask her to sign my precious mc thingy before submitting to the office. i realise we've got alot more other stuffs to do for our sip. OBJ: help villageworks sustain their products. we did more work for SIFE compared to villageworks. :/ so after june14, we've got no break & continue to brainstorm on villageworks side. there's still the proposal & SIP individual report 1500 words which we havent even started. i should stop sleeping in class though i'm really tired. i shall try.

just after i blogged finish yesterday's entry, poh called & asked me to go to town. yes, during sip cos he's got transport. :/ LOL. but i met ms sim first. after that went to find him but it was his turn for meet-the-lecturer-session. so waited a little & bought coconut cookies from those sugarloaf-walk-around-waitresses as i see them wanting to sell those stuffs off quite badly. he came out & we zoomed to......parkway instead as it was already nearing 3. PS: we have to clock-out between 5.30-5.45 otherwise considered MIA. my intention of going to some shopping centre was to get ken's birthday present! shopped abit & had bistro delifrance before heading back to school. i only finished half of my bread. -.- rushed back to school. & yes, we RUSHED. he drove back super fast cos we only left parkway at 5.25pm. & when i reached school, i ran to the lab!!! i ran ok, & climbed that darn stairs like as if i was having some training. LOL. he, even worse, parked his car but didnt lock. LOL. christine, nadiah & mel was at the carpark watching. they packed my bag & brought them down too. thanks a million(:

met ken & larry after that & wenta subway before going to larry' house cos ken wanted to get some stuffs. left for the airport to send magnumforce peeps to japan. didnt sent aces as their flight was 6am in the morning. GOODLUCK YO! michelle wishes yall' all the best!

so today was....banner & then gave a talk to a cds group. i didnt plan anything. i just talked to the class like i'm talking to a friend. -.- not a formal talk, so it was ok(: i felt so old & professional can. haha. went gymming & running & then celebrated ken's & suhui's birthday(: played a little, bathed, home(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN & SU HUI!

iwanttowatchmovieiwanttowatchmovieiwanttowatchmovie. i need to use my vouchers before 31stmay!!!!

mushroom, i'll be here for you(: just a phone call away!

boring

SIP is...look at my title. yeap. have to go down to town again on friday. -.- man really takes advantages & full use of others eh?

i've finished my banners, 2 more designs with not much effort put in compared to the previous ones. she wants a simple design NOW but the first day we met, she said she wanted something creative & not like the ones they use to have. gahhhhh. my brain juices were squeezed dry for those creative designs & she didnt even want to accept it & make alot of comments. BOO! luckily mr ericwee has agreed to end us with SIFE after the June14 event. just a few more weeks to go under her stress. christine, nadiah & melvin, let's perservere & press on! she just replied my mail & & & & & & & & & &, she is SO with the biggest S & O ever FUSSY. fonts are big, pictures must change etc. i've already changed the pictures & the fonts were similar to those of i've used in previous banners for god's sake!

i'm going to have a talk on thursday! LOL. i'm the speaker! 10 mins talk to share my experience & stuffs to some CDS class, alone! gahhh. & i dont feel kan chiong at all. wonder why.

ken said that i cant share present with the rest. boohoo!

&&&, felicia has officially left the team),: there goes our vice-captain. but blazers is still a TEAM; always will be.

release comes with a new embrace

things that are harder to get, a better catch? or just getting myself troubled? everything is inside. i'm not ready to share. i want to, but i dont want anything to leak out. so it's best everything be kept inside, at least i do not have to worry about who knows about it. i doubt people sometimes. i need a listening ear, an advisor; who can be a ziplock bag. & no, i cant blog it out for goodness sake. so what if it's in draft. blogger wont tell me what to do): allow my emotions to run.

i didnt know that you will have any impact on me, till i felt sour. & yes, i kept quiet because i'm afraid it'll hurt our friendship. FRIENDSHIP.

i've told myself to study & cheer. no more, NO MORE. concentrate(:

wanted to go home & sleep after jogging but larry sms-ed & said to go cycling/skating on the last night of his chalet. went over & in the end, played mahjong which didnt even last after a round as they went for OCH-expedition-the-second while i watched tv ALONE. it was only until today that i realise how close we are to OCH. the bungalow was directly in front can! :/ they came back & i continued to watch tv, plus abit of dozing off. decided to make myself useful & i became chef-of-the-day. LOL. bbq-ed almost all the leftovers. poh was so nice again to come & fetch, & larry decided to book out just when i asked everybody to pack their stuffs. only ken, & justin were staying over. 3 people in one big bungalow in front of OCH. :/ so in the end, poh had to fetch 7 of us back, which inclueded 1 drunkard charyl. she got drunk on her birthday, unintentionally. so i finally reached home at 1am. exhausted but still wanting to watch my ch55, i laid on my sofa.

woke up at 8.30am today when i have to reach school at 9am.-.- i will sleep before 12am from today onwards. i dont want anymore dark eye rings):<

so near yet so far; i finally got the meaning of this

i'm still surviving after larry's chalet. the rest are dead? -.- a day without sleep is almost nothing to me already. probly too much sleep the last few days? LOL.

blazers presented: justin, joy & stanly, cheryl, candy, minyi, ken, mark, zubair, haziq, charyl, fiona, weihoe, terence, favian, gary...anymore?
FUN LAR. wa bo zhui wo bo zhui wo bu zhui... LOL. &&&, wo ai de ren..bu shi wo de ai ren... i think i need to get a handy helmet. :/
zubair was so so so nice to get me porridge. though i only had like 1/5 of it. & he said he was forced to buy it for me. so i thank the mastermind ar. ((: i love blazers!

the whole bbq, i ate 1/3 hotdog & 2 marshmellows. dawn, i had 7 peanuts. ok, i didnt really count them to post them here in my blog. it's so dumb. but i'm finding it so little that i literally can count them. michelle can and will survive on small appetite right. hopefully? but i can feel my arms weakening when i did handstand & i feel the kick after 20 crunches. signs. train back train up shed fats gain muscles!
after so many days of shitting, my stomach is resting & it refuses to shit now. -.-

alot of things to blog but abit lazy now. :p

have been thinking, really thinking hard.

she loves milk

i braved myself & drank milk today. & i amazingly survived(: which means michelle is going well yo! appetite is not good & i hope it wont come back so i can think of shedding those dumb kilos. should i aim for joy's size? LOL. too exaggerating lar. crazy. unless i go aneroxic(:

k lar, gotta pack thgs up for larry's chalet. bringing alot of stuffs over.

& & & someone got one of my favorite car. heh heh. please bring me out for spins although i know after the first spin i might not go for another. LOL.

stupid fried bee hoon

i merely had a few mouths of fried bee hoon & i can feel that my stomach is starting again): no more shitting but there's tons of rumbling inside. ROAR. napping will bring it all away.

BYE.

comments comments

i've realised i'd said something wrong earlier. maybe you think that we should project transparency. yes, in some sense we are? arent we doing the right thing? filter some things out? isnt the government doing the same? maybe i shouldnt compare it this way. like i say, like they say, like what you know, it's the expectation. i didnt give you any attitude. yes, i was trying to hide. yes i'm trying to keep everything to myself, if you are refering to me. if not, it's ok. then i shall make it a.......explaining corner?

yes transparency, in some way, we are. if the comm goes out & tell the team everything, arent we making more nuisance out of the so many problems we're handling? cos we know that the individuals will disagree. & talking would help in the disagreement? if it's so easy to change human's mind so quickly, there wouldnt be any revolution taking place. i release when i have to; when i know i must. i feel that you're just not happy because you do not know everything. & i stress i FEEl. cos i know i may not be correct. look, you're saying that some people are prideful, yet you want to be like them. maybe it's just a mere comment made but if you hadnt notice, you're already beginning to be like that. i though i see wrong, i though i'm the only one who feels this way, but no. i'm not. & i chose to day it here first because i dont want to start the email thing again. cos, it'll never end. but i was thinking, will posting it out here end too? but no, i'm not refering to you only. i telling everybody in the team. it's not that we dont want to tell you guys things. besides, we tell most of it. maybe, just maybe, we havent talked in-depth for a long time. because, you never fail to leave me speechless in the end. because my mind is totally blank. & that's why i chose to keep quiet.

ilovecherylteomanping(: she's my kai xing guo!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LARRYHOO!!!

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i've got new reef slippers which are super cute & dirt cheap.

extra PT

found this in justin's blog. MICHELLE IS STRONG. she'll recover in no time & carry people again! lol. next will be larry(: whahaha. & then markkkkk. oh no..

i cant believe that i'm missing you. please go away please!

stop or i'll tickle

finally i can blog properly. i had difficulties typing yesterday's entry. but i force myself to finish it cos i've got nothing to do except sleep+shit. LOL. eating? forget about it, the moment i see food, i wana puke. && the only thing i can swallow down is, white porridge. i have to force myself to swallow it down ok. cos i dont wana go on drip! i dont want anymore injections): let's not talk about porridge, drinking water is already a problem.
yesterday, i didnt go for training but justin survived(: for those who find me stupid for wanting to go down, you'll not & maybe never understand why. cherylkohyanlin didnt want to accompany me down & even told my mum about it. gahhhhhhhhh. for my safety as i didnt want to fall again, i decided to sleep joy asked me to so that i wont think so much. for 2 consecutive days, i have been waking up, intervals of 1-2 hrs to....SHIT. but i got enough rest i guess, half a day for sleeping, another half shitting. LOL.

i'm not standing on anybody's side. just that i hope this 'transition' ends fast. we need a coach): a direction, but no path. so everybody is taking different paths to make their own way to our desired destination. suggestions to path? i have no idea.

hey mango sago, cheer up bud! it's always you cheering me up so it's my turn now i guess(: DONT EMO!!!

ouch

i didnt know walking for 400m was so tough. & for every step i took, it was happy enough to make me feel that "michelle is strong." & i made my way to the clinic, contented. after seeing the doctor, another 400m to take, can michelle do it? HAHA. she thought she could do it. she felt some difference straight after she stood up, but she perservered & decided to walk home quickly. phew, luckily it's after i crossed that damn road & i fell, straight flat. my mind was blank but i continued walking, & then i see whites patches, & "PUMB!". the first thing i thought when i was conscious was not being paiseh and all. it was how am i gonna stand up cos my legs are totally jellied. so i stayed put at my laying-flat-on-the-ground-with-face-down-position, until i heard some people wanted to call police. -.- immediately i looked at them shaking my head vigorously. they brought me to nearby seats. stayed there quite long cos totally no energy to do anything & my stomach was in tremendous pain. gave me alot of fengyou to make me breathe & stay awake. they kept talking to me but what i interpreted were bunch-of-words-that-i-cannot-digest. lol. when i could finally breathe, called whoever was first in my call list. but then, ken was having lessons. so i took another risk, construction worker & furniture mover uncles said to bring me home. i didnt know that such kind souls still exist. & when i said they could leave me once i've reached the lift, they went persistent to see me till i opened my door. without washing my wounds, i lay flat on the bed. & now...they hurt!! abrasion everywhr lar. my face also. GAHHHHHH.

thinking why i didnt call my parents? cos they wont allow me to go to training): i will not leave justin alone.

wisdom, do i have

did i mentioned that a frog was hoping back & forth our table area on the day we had dinner with coach? yea, & coach took some pics of it. was thinking if the frog escaped from the restaurant? LOL. it was supposed to be cooked but it ran away? :/ random.

i didnt sleep the whole night that day to send coach off as i was afraid i couldnt wake up. by 4.30am, my eyes were closing. i thought staying up awake wasnt any challenge. :/ by 5am, i left the house; hoping to reach airport first. & guess what? there was not a single bus except nr7. i thought buses operate around 5am?!? GAHH! so i decided to........WALK. i freaking walked from bedok to budget terminal area. -.- i thought i'll reach expo around 5.45am, when the first bus should already be operating. but no, i walked faster then i expected. so i continued my journey...till i saw bus 24. & guess what. i walked, sleeping. zombie? my eyes were literally closed when there was nothing ahead & i was walking a straight path. i was THAT tired. & i could even fall asleep in a moving bus, STANDING. i dont know how i did that, but yeah...it was true. after the airport, i was as good as a log when i landed on bed. till mame came into the room screaming to wake me up for dinner. LOL. & by 1.30am after jogging, i wanted more rest):

so yesterday i woke up at 12pm. i tv-ed till 3am. :p wanted to go out. so so so so so wanted to go queensway, movies etc. but i switched on the computer, & told myself that i'll bathe & everthing after i changed my blogskin. because apparently, some stupid people got no originality. tadaaaaaaaaa! i finished doing my stuffs around 4pm. & it was time to go to joy's granny's wake. -.- so i was thinking, maybe i could still go out after that cos cheryl was there. but no, we chatted till...11.30pm. thanks poh for offering all of us the ride home(:

i'm now alone in the lab)): all wenta the bus except meeeeeeeee. & i was so so so late today. reached school around 9.30am but i clocked-in at 9.40am cos the stupid system wants the late comers to clock-in somewhere else.

it feels great after releasing some things. i didnt had any intentions to tell anyone about anything. somewhat somethings are meant to be unspoken. but i'm glad yall lend me that listening ear i needed. & i hope nothing leaks out ya? like what yall said, let nature takes its course. i dont hope for anything, i dont want anything. i've learnt that the more you hope, the more disappointment you'll see when you get nothing. i just wanted someone to listen cos i was very much confused. i'm very glad that there was no comparisons made. i always thought that my blog was the only thing i can talk to cos it doesnt give any comments, which explains my countless draft entries. i love cheryl & minyi! joy, dont feel outcasted. things you should know, you will know(:

i'm a popsicle stick

See which description below sounds the most like your body:

Hourglass - The hourglass is probably the most sought-after shape. If you are an hourglass, you have broad shoulders that are about the same width as your wide hips. Your waist will be at least 8 inches smaller than your hips. Also, you may be bottom heavy and have big thighs. You may have a small bust, but hourglasses tend to have large busts. Example of an hourglass measurement: 36 inch shoulders, 23 inch waist, 36 inch hips.

Pear - Pears have narrow shoulders and wide hips. Their busts are small, and their hips are obviously wider than their shoulders. They are heavy in the hips, thighs, and buttocks. Example of a pear measurement: 25 inch shoulders, 22 inch waist, 28 inch hips.

Cone - Cones have very broad shoulders, skinny waists, and thin legs. They often have large busts. Example of a cone measurement: 35 inch shoulders, 24 inch waist, 25 inch hips.
Rectangle- Rectangles have straight up and down figures with no curves. Example of a rectangle measurement: 32 inch shoulders, 31 inch waist, 31 inch hips.

Apple - Apples store all of their weight in their belly. They often have small arms and legs. Example of an apple measurement: 31 inch shoulders, 37 inch waist, 35 inch hips.

Popsicle Stick- They're not rectangles; yet they're not hourglasses. They are curvy, but not as much as the hourglass. They often have balanced hips and shoulders. Example of a popsicle stick measurement: 32 inch shoulders, 25 inch waist, 32 inch hips.

Balalaika - Essentially pears, but with large bony shoulders. Examples of a balalaika measurement: 39 inch shoulders, 23 inch waist, 32 inch hips.

You cannot change your body shape. It is based on bone structure. The only way shapes can change is by age, puberty, and some exercises may turn some hourglasses into rectangles.

we'll miss akane

coach left. without much hesitation. but i know deep down she wanted to tell us many things. she told me previously that she didnt want us to go to the airport. cos farewells are disheartening.

she loves her shirt, doesnt she(:

FAREWELL DINNER

had dinner at indonesian seafood restaurant. nice food, good view & great company. leftovers which coach dabao. hah. gave her the tshirt & i could see tears. slacked at tcc after that.

went home & shyen pestered me to take pics. she's in PJs. lol.

UP-your-service course

- this is how bored i was. colouring contest!

feelings: mixed. guys make girls confuse(: