leaders are humans too):

yes! CHEER CAMP stuffs are settled!!!!!!!!!

now...logistics & food

give up and to be continued

my eyes are switching off after uploading tons of pictures. you'll know it soon.
anyway, kennethchew wants me to blog that...
HE IS GONNA GET ME A WALLET FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

insanity.

totally exhausted

you'll never understand how happy i was when i came out from my presentation room. it's not exactly about how well we did it, but it was over. my grin was more than from ear to ear, you can clearly see me toothless on both sides.

i miss the net, i miss online shopping, i miss blogging. but right now, i dont feel like blogging upon looking at the number of pictures i've to upload. :/

CAMP CAMP CAMP.

exhausted

i cant believe i actually sleep in the meeting room inside the staff room for 2.5hours. & i mean sleep. deep sleep. at some point of time, i was conscious. but i wasnt able to open my eyes. yes....THAT TIRED. i didnt had a wink last night): i'm so so so gonna sleep till i have aches after this proj. i cant wait to play! christineeeeeee, swimming next week okok?

back to proj.

i'm out!

happrybirthday to you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYLKOHYANLIN!

so fanglynn kinda gang up with me to surprise her. my sister's reaction was damn funny. "herhhhhhhhh! what are you doing at my house?"

i wana blogg):

but again, gonna continue on my proj.

keep my hands, keep my hands, keep my hands off the cookie jar.

i'm toothless):

LOL. i've 4 teeth plucked out and everybody's laughing. boooooooo! it's so difficult to chew. i've to eat soft food. i had chengteng for dinner and of cos it was not full. so got biscuits & milk to make it soft.

any suggestions for liquid diet excluding porridge?

gotta continue proj.

gyming was SHIOK. & i'm super tired. HELP.

xoxo

i miss your smell

i'm busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy.

& still here blogging. thought i should explain about my current disappearance. PROJECTS suck. i wana go back school to study): photos on my phone are piling.

BYE.

*that guy is so dangerous, that guy is so dangerous, that guy is a bad guy...

picking myself up

maybe i was wrong to take a break, and maybe i was right? i dont want to hide myself from those mistakes. yea, accepting & facing them. I've always been ready to accept things and overcome them one at a time.

when things come, they will go. so michelle, face it. deal with them accordingly and everything shall be fine. there's always a rainbow after the rain, even the biggest storm.

"how hard is your working hard?" i was shoot right on the spot, and come to realise, just how exactly how hard did i work for? Work-outs and training at home is fine. But am i improving?

"if you train hard, and you're standing at where you are standing last month, so what improvement have you made for 1 month?"

*GOALS.

i'm sorry i've disappointed you or any of you. i'm sorry to hide and avoid things that were coming instead of facing them. but there's no point saying sorry, i know. cos at the end of the day, i should be sorry for myself.

& i guess that's what i've been exhausted about; hiding while darts are thrown at me.

school
i've been in school this entire week. world cafe dry run later! omg. i'm not excited, even the tiniest bit. i just want this to end like how we blink. cos this has NOTHING TO DO WITH MY SIP and i dont understand why my lecturer got us involved when we have tons of stuffs to do. I was supposed to print my brochure ytd but ms sim didnt pick up my call.
oh, & my comp is crashed....AGAIN. hate it. 3071 viruses. LOL. please...can anyone help to revive it?
melvin is playing the sushi game, like everyday. my eyes are closing.

& yesterday was mama's birthday(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA. we had cafe cartel for dinner at tm, and went for moneynoenough2. my 2nd time watching and i find it...not very nice actually. i made justin cycled to tm to take the track keys from me))))))): i felt very extremely super duper guilty for being dumb and stupid, only to realise that the keys were with me when i pulled my phone out. wanted to buy oreo cheesecake for dear captain but it was sold out. i still am feeling bad for making him come over),:

talking about oreo cheescake, i still owe jm another cake. LOL.

PS: thanks jm for the call early in the morning after i replied ur msg, allowing me to rant everythg out and tolerating my "i-dont-knows".

i'm not replying

it really affects me how others see me. & now, i know what you see in me...correction, us. i'm not sure what she's gonna say but as for me, i'm gonna justify myself.

"You wanna explain? But there's no need to..Only you know what exactly happen.."

Yes, i know exactly what i've been up to. I did not work hard enough to improve? Do you see it? No, you dont. So what makes you judge me? Yes, i gave myself a break from trainings last week. Do you know why? No, you dont. I've gave my reasons to the committee, and they understood it well enough. Do you know I've been doing jumping jacks, jogging, abs exercise, push-ups everyday? Ok, not every single day but at least 5 times a week. & you assumed i stop working hard.

I know why you dont see it. Cos I dont train with you any longer. Not that i dont want to, but because i suck at managing my time. In the end, I have to train by myself at night even when my mama nags at me for runs during wee hours. I'm getting it back now. I'm trying to deal with my time management so i hope you give me sometime before getting back to the well-organised michelle.


there's seriously something wrong with my body. Think it's really really really time for me to sleep early. Not gonna hang on to my tv and comp till 5am. You said you will let it go michie(:

oh...& today is NADIAH's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS NADIAH!! we gave her a surprise together with ms sim. hehe. ms sim was so ON. she got herself involved in this surprise by calling nadiah (pretending to be pissed) and asked her to go up to her staff room. Melvin was already in the room & Christine ran up the stairs while i took the lift with her. Ms Sim came out of the staff room and went "Hurry up. What took you girls so long just to come up!" Her face was so black i tell you, even i will get tricked. The moment Nadiah went in to the room, she "OMG-ed!" all the way (there was a cake on the table), hiding in one corner. haha. glad she was surprised(:

waiting for chermush now for lunch/dinner before meeting e rest for gym(:

yay! i've finished my brochure. gonna send them out asap so that our PR2 will have something to add on. Hopefully some company is interested in villageworks products as corporate gifts. just 1....1 company & we'll be happy enough!

just another day

- cute? LOL. comething i drew when i was in the lab waiting for hotmail to load. no joke. i finish this drawing & hotmail hasnt load. :/ this is how slow our sch's connection is. BOOOO!

so today, we did the pre-dry run for world cafe. i was totally blank. with so many lecturers looking at you, please tell me how you facilitate. -.- & so......i'm a lousy facilator. Headed to cheers & then bizpark thinking tt e cheerleaders will be there. i was right(: larry, ken, jasmineneo, justin were there.

did tumblings & stunts. i'm doing my backtuck! thanks to larry!!!!!!!!!!!! :D he complimented on it & i guess tt's why i suck today): singaporeans cannot po one.

dinner at prata. so all of us got arrowed at by larry&ken. -.- ALL OF US. when they were disturbing, i wanted to say "this is why, never ever get involved with ur own cca group. because your own team mates will make you suffer." and then...........i was shoot. went to the playground area & we did stunts. anytime anywhere, i present to you...

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SIMIN'S FIRST ATTEMPT 1-1-1!!!

till then. XOXO

quoted

"he rather he's the only one that is being hated then the whole team lost and hate each other"

so maybe...this is what leaders are designed to do.

PS: do not make someone your priority when you are only his/her option. Smile like you always do because you'll never know who you would have caught with those wide grin of yours.

i feel bad

i almost killed my bases. twice...today. i'm really very very guilty. but ... i dont know what was i doing - kicking in the air, opening my legs.
i'm sorry mark & rooney): i would have died if mark didnt catch me.
thank jasminechye & suhui for those encouragement.

1. i do not trust my base.
2. I'm afraid.
3. My mind is not clear.
Which is it? I dont know.

i'm suppose to reach home in the morning today. as seen just now, i was still at chermush house at noon. I stayed there till night doing boring stuffs. that girl was mugging hard. & so i designed something for blazers tshirt. Will post it up on the blog soon after i've done it on the PC(: & then i cooked for her. oh...she did facial masks for me too. totally girl thing. heh. i'm so not suppose to be at her house cos i'm disturbing her studies): but still, i didnt do anything when she was mugging.
headed to compasspoint for dinner. poh was 'home-alone' so he came with sam to meet us...initially for dinner but when they reached, we had our fill. grapevine after that...played some games & homesweethome.
my house is gonna start the cold war. so...it's better to be home early than to create more trouble. sis&miller waited for me while i cabbed home to avoid any.......firing. :x

brand new

i've got lots to post. but let's talk about right now. i loathe chermush's lappy's "H". cos it's sick & extremely stoned. i need to click it real hard so that a "H" comes out.
thanks ppl for ur concern. i'm alright; at least on the outside(: there's nothing much left in the inside. as long as i dont think about it.

Yesterday marks the end of NDP. & so...my saturdays are once again, restored. PS: i just knock my head on chermush's bed & it hurts. i whined but she continued sleeping.
to sum up, the NDP experience was awesome. first, i get to know many ppl, esp other cheerleaders from different tertiaries - NUS, SP, NP (Magnum Force, which makes up 3/4 of the pro-cheer category), & then it taught me to interact more cos i've to instruct the JCkids, what else...erm....oh, of cos. stunt fest taught me quite alot too. though most of the time i sat somewhere looking, but i did absorb. 'watch & learn' so now...just gonna apply it somewhere? not forgetting those talks with lenny, zm, andra, jen....etc(:
mama woke up on the wrong side of bed. early in the morning, she started 'playing non-stop hits'. I was preparing to go out, but didnt dare to leave the house as i was afraid she'll start some 'chart attack'. So, i waited for everything to end, and sped off eventhough i know i'll reach early. Went to suntec to get stuffs before meeting the pro-cheer.
ken asked geokghee along and she corrected her habits(: the choco was worth it, i guess. hah.
i tried to make my last ndp not so boring by doing scorpian with citra, denise, eunice & we snapped(: shall wait for her to upload & asked her to send it to me. whheeeee! andra says my scorpian is a spider. :/ fine, shall improve on tt!
the last perf for them was really awesome. all stunts were up. & you can really see the basket-tosses...the effects. it was a 'whoa!'. :D good job people! cheerleading is finally something seen not only on TV, cheerobics but NDP!!!
so after they did their thing, it was back to the flyer. magnies went crazy. ive got videos & pics to proof. ahaha. they're really something that can make you laugh the whole day. totally hilarious.
so after everything ended, i didnt know where to head to. felt lost, literally. there were lots of options - meet mama, clarke quay, walk around, home, wait for chermush, movie...etc. PS: thanks poh for the offer & JM for your concern(: thanks alot friends. chermush came to find me & we chatted till.....i dont know what time. she was singing to her own tune & make up lyrics like she was making her own songs. Sometimes, we dont have to talk and only to enjoy the companion we have. You dont have to talk to show the presence. The presence was much appreciated. Girls are difficult to understand? I agree to it...totally. Cos i dont understand myself(:
I didnt feel & wanna go home & so....i'm at chermush house now. though i slept on her 'tilam', but amazingly, i slept a full 8 hours. guess my mind was exhausted after so much pondering. oh...i cooked for her when she's at my house, & i still have to cook for this dear girl when i'm her guest. :/ reason being: chermush is having an exam on monday.

Tomorrow will be the continuation of everything. But what i've told myself to rest & forget about this whole week will be at the back of my head. PROJECTS, CHEER, GYM....& bracey!

counting down to extraction. 10 more days.

"i'll bring you to every fireworks."

i've watched it countless times every saturday, & yesterday felt so different. imu.

street idiot?

i did something stupid at fossil. i realise i'm a talking-to-salesperson idiot. l do not know how to initiate and start proper conversations. oh...& i found out tt i actually have to get myself ready & prepared for a speech before i actually talk to them(: how....DUMB.

IMPORTANT: PR2 or MP presentation on 260808. We're not ready): bless my group.

More update soon. Check time now: 5.10am. My body system is going haywire): i'm so gonna sleep early from tomorrow/later. mush is here again cos she has artwork (mask) to finish.

nyahaha

FRIDAY 010808
had the D-cup. lost to a team who has this super strong 3-point shooter. he was damn good. he got at least 5 3points. :/ oh..we lost like 1 point. super.....ARGH!
Wanted to go prawning with mushroom & junmin, but mama dont allow): cos it's 7th month. BOOOOOO!
maggiemee((((:

PS: sam is a nice dude! thanks.

SATURDAY 020808
mushh went for her proj meeting. after baibai, wenta marina. wanted to find the rest at the flyer. but it was nearing 5pm. & they are supposed to leave to the platform ard tt time. skipped the idea.
saw some dance audition outside suntec. & tpde was participating! there were 3 groups of them. stayed throughout to watch the group category. TPDE WAS GREAT. i cheered for them....ALONE. i felt so....ermh.....wahahahahahahha. jiayou TPDE!
mushhy met me again aft her proj meeting. we were searching for ocean tower, instead went to odeon tower. :/ LOL. had dinner at changing appetite. MUDPIES!!!

- i was imitating it :/

SUNDAY 030808
i slept at 8am. was online doing rubbish. -.- my body clock is faulty. hazel aunty called at 10.30am to asked if i was free. said yes, & "BANG", i was at ckTangs DIOR to work for her.
played with the make up & all. colleagues were kinda...not young. but pretty people. i felt like i was a charcoal at tangs. most of them have delicate white fair skin. i'm the only tan one.
junmin was at town with some of his frens. said hello when he passed by.
got some bread from breadtalk. i wanted 'jiamtouloti' but there wasnt any. got 2 small cupcakes, and a bread. ate tt on the bus, & yea....tt was my dinner. & i think lunch too? :/

PS: thanks jm for the nice talk.


MONDAY 040808
woke up at 1.30 by bag dealer & mushhy's call. made the transfer to her alr. so people, pay up(: $11.50 per bag! mushhy was so sweet; asking me if i want to eat breakfast. she went to eat with her proj mates till 3 plus. i thought she wasnt coming over alr cos she didnt call. & "POP", she was at my doorstep with chee cheong fun and toasts!
she asked me why i didnt want to go training): RAR.
wanted to head to the fishspa with mama. but she was lazy to prepare. proceeded to town instead. got sis & mama their presents. sis - necklace & earrings, mama - fresh water pearls necklace & bracelet. oh...& flipflops for myself(((:
nydc cheesecakes. i think secret recipe is best!
home...& she's now sleeping on my sofa. as usual, she falls asleep after pondering for energybar. sweetdreams girl!

Some overdue photos

- this is so kiddish!

- i was jumping on some trampoline-alike thingy

- i was lost? so a map might help?

- am i gonna look this ugly with braces? ))):

- at mushyy's house trying to fit the fan's plug.


- we were playing makeup tt day. can you see the different eyeshadow colours on both eyes? & the stupid lipstick thingy was mum's idea. i took her reddest lipstick!

- i dont know what's this. caught when i was probably doing some stupid stuff.

- no, i dont love cigarettes


- promoting the food pyramid!


- i pass as a rocker, do i?


- purple dinosaurs arent tt huge.

- this is classic!


- Hawaii girls?

- my face was cramped.

- when i video called joy!

- the dance we learnt at the taiwan workshop(: mich VS joy!

PPS: dont ask me about watching my diet. i'm feeling super stressed up. tt explains the mudpies & cheesecakes.

1 week break.

michelle is taking a break from TP BLAZERS. Dont ask me why, what, how or whatever. I'm just sick of everything. And NO, I'm NOT GIVING UP. Like what the title says, i'm taking 1 week break from training BUT...i'm still training myself. how can michelle not train? :/
& yea, i still love tpblazers(: