release comes with a new embrace

things that are harder to get, a better catch? or just getting myself troubled? everything is inside. i'm not ready to share. i want to, but i dont want anything to leak out. so it's best everything be kept inside, at least i do not have to worry about who knows about it. i doubt people sometimes. i need a listening ear, an advisor; who can be a ziplock bag. & no, i cant blog it out for goodness sake. so what if it's in draft. blogger wont tell me what to do): allow my emotions to run.

i didnt know that you will have any impact on me, till i felt sour. & yes, i kept quiet because i'm afraid it'll hurt our friendship. FRIENDSHIP.

i've told myself to study & cheer. no more, NO MORE. concentrate(:

wanted to go home & sleep after jogging but larry sms-ed & said to go cycling/skating on the last night of his chalet. went over & in the end, played mahjong which didnt even last after a round as they went for OCH-expedition-the-second while i watched tv ALONE. it was only until today that i realise how close we are to OCH. the bungalow was directly in front can! :/ they came back & i continued to watch tv, plus abit of dozing off. decided to make myself useful & i became chef-of-the-day. LOL. bbq-ed almost all the leftovers. poh was so nice again to come & fetch, & larry decided to book out just when i asked everybody to pack their stuffs. only ken, & justin were staying over. 3 people in one big bungalow in front of OCH. :/ so in the end, poh had to fetch 7 of us back, which inclueded 1 drunkard charyl. she got drunk on her birthday, unintentionally. so i finally reached home at 1am. exhausted but still wanting to watch my ch55, i laid on my sofa.

woke up at 8.30am today when i have to reach school at 9am.-.- i will sleep before 12am from today onwards. i dont want anymore dark eye rings):<