i feel bad

i almost killed my bases. twice...today. i'm really very very guilty. but ... i dont know what was i doing - kicking in the air, opening my legs.
i'm sorry mark & rooney): i would have died if mark didnt catch me.
thank jasminechye & suhui for those encouragement.

1. i do not trust my base.
2. I'm afraid.
3. My mind is not clear.
Which is it? I dont know.