emo

my posts r so random these few days. aint any mood t do blog, i duno why. lots of shitty thgs happened too. bygones, just let them b bygones. it's not gona do any good t me when i keep it inside.
no more sims. sis is charging f it. what shld i say? how.....? grrr. i've nv charged her f using my com, let alone making a fuss when she wants t use my com; she'd nv asked me. i've nv sound it out not bcos i dun care, i just dowana quarrel. respect me? is this how u shld do it? arent u e one who taught us t ask for PERMISSION? now u're teaching us t charge too >:( .

-cheryl's sims.

-sis's sims
-my sims heading out.

yes i miss sim-img. but aint gona pay f it. charging f a GAME? hah!

nobody seems t b free today):. sadly. when i'm free, sili isnt. there's so many places i wana go! however, there isnt sufficient time. cos hols=projects. they r gona kill me soon *shrugs. OB, law, PMGTINO & i duno wad else lar. leon's going army nx fri. miss e time when we were in sec sch. meeting him on wkdays i guess. anybody wana join? call me up okae.
initially had plans t go kster with sarah. but cancelled cos only 2 of us were free. i wana go chill. i wana get high! i wana play! i wana relax! I WANT TO ENJOY!
ytd discussed wit mum abt staying overnight at 'chalets'. most of e time, when i've late nights, i'll tell her tt i'm going f birthday parties & will b staying over at e chalet. if i dun say tt, i must b home b4 1am. i've no choice but t lie. ytd, i asked her (not e truth lar, she'll ground me f yrs man) ..e conversation was lyk tis:

me: mummy, i've sth t discuss wit u.
mom gave a look.
me: sometimes when i go for parties, i dun intend t stay overnight. but bcos u want me t come home b4 1am. can i extend e time a little longer?
mom: did u see wad happened downstairs this morning?
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tis is not e 1st time. she always do this. changing subject when she is not supposed to. rls--
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me: wad thg? i talking t u abt e east, u ask me west.
mom: huh? i thought u saw was happened this morning, then i ask ma.
me: i'm asking seriously leh.
mom: wad thg?
me: repeated.
mom: in tt case u come home lar!
me: ya. but e time? can extend?
mom: why must extend?
me: u think noe stil pri sch meh? party in e afternoon, go home at night. we start partying at night leh. so 1am is e mid of e partying but u wan me t go home.
mom: den u dun go lor.
me: look at her.
mom: den u get home at 1am.

other ppl encourage us t tok t our parents. wad's e point when it will b e same as b4? i long expected e ans t b tis negative, but i wanted t try it out since i've nv tried it b4. i reckon tt it will not b e same when cheryl asks mum. tis is called "pian xin". like why mum gets crazy when me & jie's room is messy, but she tidies up f cheryl when her study table is as dirty as garbage bin. & yes. i mean dirty. not messy. she has wrappers all over her tables-sweets, choco, crackers. unfortuantely, i'm slping in e room with her study table! grrrr. PS: i love cleanliness.back t mum, she'll wash her uniform everyday even when cheryl puts it in her bag. back in my times, mum dun even care. when i forget t put my uniform into e washing machine, i dun need t go t sch e next day. c e diffs?
& it's s super funny when i lie den will she believes me. i rmb once when i was going t sch.
she asked: whr r u going?
me: sch lar.
mom: sch must wear so nice one meh?
me: sch cnt wear nice meh? den u wan me everyday wear shorts & tshirts t sch ar?
mom: u goin out right?
me: ya lar ya lar. going out.
mom: den stil say go sch.
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she was obviously nt listening t me. if i continue e conversation, she WILL STILL say tt i was going out. so just agree with watever she says. another one when i was going t e library.
me: mommy, i go library.
mom: go library f wad?
me: return & borrow books t read lar.
mom: must go library one meh? our hse dun hav books t read meh?
me: our hse got alot of books t read hor. read 17 yrs like nv finish one right?
mom: u going out right? go out with who?
me: hiya, ya lar ya lar. i go out with my frens.
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got e point? i must lie t her f her t trust me. how ironic? there's many others too lar. too many t point out individually.
every houshold has it's difficulties t face(chi). so why is mine so awfully strange?
i hate mine. but am lucky t hav xiaogu's listening ears. she's been backing me up<3. thanks, with love.

too many thgs changed. i'm not sure if i can accept. i've told myself i havta, bt it's bringing my insides out.

mood has been superbly sucky. hav no idea why too. lack of sleep? probly eh.

random pics.
-siriporn send us some strawberries pics(:
-found tis in my recieved files. she's wearing my slippers! can u pls asked? open ur damn golden mouth!!!

-my angel(:

i dun c anybody respectg me in tis family. well, den fine. dun blame me when i start disrespecting u ppl. i've done my part t respect u, bt i dun c myself having u guys' respect. like i said, small little thgs can touch others, & they can do harm too.