yes? no?

pls. someone tel mi wad to do? y m i bhaving lidat? i've changed. i mux change. i mus change to forget ctyw. i mus learn. he's a god damn bastard. he's a jerk. he's a darn bloody gd liar. someone who lied to mi for 3 yrs. not totally. but stil approximately dere. he's a sucker. [xcuse me]
found he's ex's frnster. i didn find. it jux came out. so i viewed. hahs. preti gal i wld say. cute one. i'm nt sayin tis cos he wil read or wad. in fact i duno whether he noes it's him i'm toking abt. hahx.
y does he wana make mi he's gal? y? y? y? y mi?
i've a v short period of tym to forget ctyw. memories wil owaes b dere. arghh. it's hard. but since i've been trying hard for a yr or so. i've gt to put n let him out of my life. eventuali i will hav to. cos he wil not b back. even if he's back, yes he is, but, do i wana suffer agn? no. so it's beta to let go. i wil. i've learnt my ways. to forgiv n forget. though sths cant b forgotten, i mus learn tt e past is not my future. luv cums n go, n it's tym to let go of tis one. i dun wish it to b back b back. jus blame it tt i've put in so much on tt rls. shldn hav got back wit u when it has first ended. blame it on myself. foolish. naive. gulible. soft hearted. *signs but stil, u left a scar in my hart. a scar tt is owaes visible in e inside.
thgs tt wil owaes remind mi of u: songs. ai duo shao zhao zhi dao. shen re kuai le. chi xin jue dui. chun zai. shou fang kai. sha gua qing ren. zuo bian. ai ni bu shi liang san tian. dui bu qi wo ai ni. feng shou kuai le. all or nothing. the painter. the reason. places. suntec. shaw. citylink.milleniawalk. pasir ris park. sch. void decks. blocks staircase. places near ur hse. ur hse. my last tym hse. others. ur winnie e pooh. ur cat. ur neoprints. ur smile. ur frnster. ur posts. e keychain u made. metal keychain. ur msgs. ur sensitiveness. ur over-protectiveness. ur attitude. ur cuteness. ur mole on ur back. n ur sucky swit tok tt makes mi wana gt back wit u agn. arghh.
i'm nt sure if u wil read my blog agn. but if u happen to. jus wana say, hey, i've given up hope on u. thru tis rls, u make mi learnt alot.
i feel uneasy. though tis is a journal, my journal, but it has it's limitations. i cant say out some thgs here, stil.
did business proj jus now. almost finished wit e report. left conclusion. which we wil do tml. n e pics for e presentation. ok. tis reminds mi to put e pics n to do my conclusion. arghh. no mood nw. arghh. but i musnt let luv b my habit. it shld b a pleasure. +hopefully+ playing wit kc on msn in sch. *luffs n he tot i was christine. so fun playing wit him. hahs. i luv my bze cls lars. it's fun, entertaining, enjoyable, crappy. wit christine, clare, nadiah is much much more of lufters. hoho. so much lufters dere can b a possibility tt 1 of us slips n falls down? choy. touch wood. i dowan any of us to b hurt. n we wil continue to b gd tp bze frens k? hahs. for e nx 3 yrs. clare mus study arhh. dun change course. i'll miss u one. so u cnt change course. =p
joanne is a v fun ger too. woahohoho. she wana feed mi wit her shit. but i noe she cant bear to...c her shit eaten up by mi. lol. ok. tt's gross.
actuali. my mind is stil filled up wit loads of stuff. shldn hav b so kpo. tis is wad curiousity owaes lead to. hate it.
y is he not back yet. even is he is. m i gona ask him. i noe i wil nt. i dun hav e courage to. n if i hav, wad m i gona ask? wad wil i start wit?


ytd *he is cute. hahs. ask mi permission to __s_ , though i rejetted. he stil did. tt's rude k. i didn agree to it. make mi so shy can. n i bit him. hahs. oopppps. but u luk so chrispy. n muchy. lol.