painting day

painted e hse today. it's so blue now. but it's not finished yet. parts r left f dad t finish them. haha. watching girl's out loud n blogging at e same tym. xiaxue is so short. i'm nt tall either, i noe, bt she look so super short beside rosalyn. wenta sin ma's (grand aunt) funeral just now at e evening. grandma came n cried immediately, making e others t sob. i've been going t her hse t bai nian since young. last yr was e last tym i saw her...samantha's fren was dere too. i was so super shocked lar. lyk, how in e world is he related to me. but aft abt 15 mins, when he have yet t burn e joss sticks, i then realise tt he/they were nt close to sin ma. wanted t say hi but chose t act blur. aft tt, he stil duno how managed t find n call my name t say hi. didn expect tis t happen. went hm aft tt. jasmine(cousin) stayed overnight. initially, mum wanted t stayed overnight at e funeral cos tml chu sua, bt seeing tt all of us didn want t, she followed us hm. so i guess, tml will b an early day f her.
i've found out many thgs frm jasmine. okae, she didn tel me. bt upon looking at a pic tt shows her wrist cut, i was sure her msgs collected more of e details. so i kinda read a few of her msgs, n saw a note in her wallet too. hmmm, she cut her wrist for wj. so just why is it tt ppl gets hurt easily? mayb i've experienced it, n learn t let go. s comparing them t myself, i'm actuali much more stronger. but tt's not exactly too. b4 learning t let go, i've thought of suicides too. who doesnt? but i cant accept all tis, esp my close ones. it's nt worth ending ur life if e person u care do nt care abt u any longer, rite?
jasmine was wit wj. wj sorta flirts wit other gals, including holding another gals' hand. so they quarrelled, n whenever jas is down, hy wil tok t her. she was touched by hy's actions, sorta having a crush on him. she broke up wit wj. bt wj didn want. both of them settled down n allowed jas t think abt it f a few days. one ay in e morning, hy sms her n ask her t stead, thinking tt it was wj, she agreed. wj was angry when he learned abt it bt he stil sent her his wishes. aft abt a few days, she realised tt she doesn lyl hy even a tiny bit. she misses wj alot. broke up wit hy, she looked f wj. but wj told her tt he hates her. tt's when she had thoughts of suicide. )=

off t girls out loud. though ros is bitching xiaxue, i stil prefer ros then xiaxue-the-super-shortie.