The days before Nationals..

Grrrrr. To resize the photos is just so tedious.

The days before Nationals were… needless to say, stressful. I’ve never flown so much in my cheerleading life; let’s not talk about 2nd basing. 2nd basing is so much easier though there will always be unavoidable bruises.

I remembered the first time Citra asked me to go up there to do a chin-chin. I did a Michael Jackson move. 21st Jan 2010 embarks the date when I did my first chin-chin. And I only did scorpion for like maybe 10 times, which I practiced for a performance.

Obviously from the video, I was balancing. :/ To be frank, I didn’t have any confidence in my bases.

I learned and grow to believe in my team members. And when I ‘fell’, I believed I will be in safe hands. Once, sue caught me, by herself. She was my crash mat, and both of us fell. My eyes were closed as there weren’t any front spotters. In fact, I was prepared to hit my face. Words just can’t express the joy when I hit some flesh instead of the soft yet hard mats.
There were times too when xinyi caught me. She's so small, so tiny, and sometimes had to be on her knees to lessen my impact of those slips.

I remembered evidently which I slipped off twice, with no catchers. And the last time was so hard that it actually got me thinking if I should fly again.
Hey, but this is cheerleading. Of course, safety shouldn’t be neglected. But accidents are bound to happen. I have to be strong, for myself, for my group, for my team.

At the end of the training, I stood up again, and did what I love to, 2nd basing, and instantly, it brought me up. I thought to myself, “This is my opportunity to step ahead, to gain my confidence, to grow as a cheerleader.”



I remembered the happy times during training. It wasn't the times when I hit my first full up, nor when I did my first chinchin, or when I did full or double down. It was when I went back the next few trainings and was able to do what I did the last training. It was when I did my double down the previous training, and improved it to a chinchin 1 1/2 down. LOL. And hit derrick's shoulder which resulted in my disgusting ulcers.



It was also when the bhs was easy-peasy, the straddle full up was sharp. The happiest times were when we did the high-superlow-tick tock effortlessly. No compensation can be made with just a single slip.



Somehow when we Jay started giving out the Nationals tees, I felt the anxiety. Nationals IS coming.

Friday: SSC filming

Full Dress Rehearsal

- Then, we were shaky, just 1 day before the actual thing. And this mini circle of life lifted us up. Stunts kept falling for I dont know what reasons. But this managed to change everything.

We went home happily. Had tauhuay for dinner with the rest, and xinyi went home with me. I stole pics from xinyi's blog. :p OK, excuse my messy kitchen. :/

"Over night at Michelle's doing take turns to bathe, drink jin du nian chi an together, wash and hang dry laundry together, pack bag, brush teeth together, sleep (after turning and tossing for very very long) and wake up together, sew each other's uniform, leave her house for competition... she truly made me feel like her sister :) " - So touched!!

- packing my stuffs.

We tossed and turned. Slept in several positions. The moment we closed our eyes, it was "LET'S Go! How many people can do it like me ZERO!"

My alarm went at 5.15am. We got ready, and were off to go!

PS: I'll be back soon!

Nationals

I'll be back with a decent post. Right now, tons of work due to the leaves and mcs.

Look back at what you did 2 months ago, and what you are capable of now.


PS: Xiaxue's solemnization is sucha WOW.

heart thumping

Finally a simple layout.

Anyway, though my photoshop is gone, I'm still able to edit photos using the software that my camera provides. I cant seem to find the time to do it though. :p

I slept at like 3 plus? Not really sure what time. Only remembered that I forced myself to bed at 2.45am and kept tossing throughout. I'm supposed to be on pm leave but I woke up at 9-ish. :/

Shyen is playing cooking mama. -.-

Last one to go. 100%; only more, nothing less.

Fly fly fly

Butterflies are here, like since yesterday. This is way too early. :/

3rd post for the day

QNS: Why do you eat when you dont feel like eating? When you have appetite for nothing except yakult and candies.

ANS: When you know that yakult and candies cant make you perform during trainings.


Because I'm literally just chewing and swallowing my food): I wana get well like right now!!!

VISUALS

- cute shyen in boots.

The Greenhouse cafe. Just love the ambience.

- real flower k!

Outing with Juneil, Paula, Javier (Paula's son) and Paula's sister.

- he is one utimate cuteness. Speaks a mix of eng, zhao xia but cute mandarin and thai. LOL.

- Paula is a thai.

- cute righttttt.

- loud but shy boy.

Angel's 20th

- the adorable super mini cupcakes. 1 for each present.

- this is mine(((; We had this at 126, after the dimsums.

- Wenta Sarah's place. Mushroom is so fleshy. And the coffee table becomes his fave 'chilling' spot.

- One clumsy dog. Slips and falls umpteen times.

Make music day

- at the airport. Look at the eyes. CLOSING. I think this was about 4am?

- Still making..

- my dark eye rings clearly showed that I needed sleep. :/

Yeap, we both took turns to sleep for about an hour. LOL.

Xenedict's 21st

- Other pics can be found in FB. Heh.

Selvam: "Lenny, I'm so happy you're back you know. Although you didnt coach me much......."

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Selvam should just do the telephone dance. PLEASE DO NOT GIVE OUT ALCOHOL TO SELVAM. EVEN 10ml. It'll kill his surrounding friends.

126 again, but with legacians - to satisfy lenny's cravings for dimsums.

7 people ate the lesser number of dishes as 5. :/ HAHAHAH. How did we girls finish 17 plates on angel's birthday? I only remember eating porridge, shrimp rolls, chee chong fun, prawn fritters and 1 super yucky xiaolongbao. LOL.

- goody bye, my 1st iphone pink top. The pink top is suffering from internal organs damaged. The plastic holding the phone can no longer wrap around it. The plastic is chipping off one gradually.

blogskin

I think my blogskin is so confusing. I still want a plain white one.. Or a black background. Hunting for a new skin. Byeeeee.

Oh... and I'm moving my picture in appropriate folders in photobucket before posting them. :D

See yourself as a winner, and you'll perform like one.

Hard does not equals to impossible. You do not see impossibility anywhere in the word hard, nor in difficult. Strenuous it is, and that is where challenges come.

We can do this, we MUST do this.

Things are no longer surreal. We aint in doubts. We know we can do this.

Always remember the buying vegetable theory. You go to the market, and the only thing in mind is to get THAT certain vegetable. When you’re choosing the…say cabbage, you don’t tell yourself “Don’t choose the rotten ones”, but you’ll automatically pick out the green ones.
Most of the times, we know the basics, we know the techniques, we know how to execute it. So why keep telling yourself what’s wrong?
To add on to that, when somebody points out your mistake, think about what you should do CORRECTLY, and append it to what you did previously, instead of doing this right and something else wrongly. You add the right moves, minus the wrong ones.

Ok, visuals. Yea, very outdated pictures. I’m just lazy to load them into photobucket and then to copy and paste the links. GAHHHH. So tedious.

- picnic with bee

OK, the rest are still resizing. :p BYE

jiayou 2010

Go Blazers! It's all or nothing. All stunts up! :D

GO GO GO GOCHENGYEE. :p

Different teams, same passion. Jiayous!

Last but not least, Legacy, we'll own it. Will is not a strong word. WE MUST OWN IT.

Stay strong

Of all times, I am to be sick now... My head is spinning. The gallons of water I'd gulped down makes me wana puke. My throat feels like it wants a good scratch. My nose is so stucked. And when i start coughing, my head feels like it's put in between 2 shutting walls.


Control, confident, consistency. I LOVE YOU k.

Angel's birthday

After training, I took my sweetest time to prepare. Wanted to cab over but I had to much time to waste. Took a bus down and cabbed over to 126 for dimsum. My 2nd time there. The first time was at the wee hrs with Silas and mark. Heh. And I didn't know the name of the place, until yesterday. :/

Mini cupcakes instead of the regular size cake since there were only 5 of us. It was easy to gauge that we will be super duper full after the dimsums too. Mini cupcakes were just right(:

Took a cab back to sarah's house. Eeons since we last went to her place. Well, at least for me. Long and fruitful catch up. Angel and I finally went home at 4.35. It was 5 by the time I reach home.

Of course, my parents didn't know. :/ My regular "be home" time now is after 12? Before 3 though. I was so so trying to be very cautious on opening the door. :p And when I closed my room door, I was so relieved. :p

On the way to training now and the stupid bus is just so annoying. I've been sitting on this chair for the past 30 mins. Grrrr.

my iphone need some clothes - having its scars

This girl wore a shirt saying "I heart hot guys.", and next to her, holding her hand was this fat and thick guy. I was biting my lips, and then bee sighed, "Oh my god. Is he hot?" HAHAHAHAHHAHA.
This happened sometime back. But i saw the shirt somewhere and it triggered my memory to it.

I'm so glad that redcats is finally opened. It was delayed like for almost half a year? Somehow it was what I wanted it to be. More to it actually. Thinking of the size of cheerleading in Singapore, it's just impossible to have it how I want it to be though. Redcats WILL expand(:
PS: My blog is a wishing blog, so this will come true. :p

As you can see, I'm all tied down with work. Hence, it explains the decreased number of posts.

My phone was on recovery mode yesterday): I cleverly clicked the 'update new software' on itunes thinking that nothing will happen. Next thing I knew, the cable picture came out on the phone. That means.... ALL MY MSGS ARE GONE. I felt not so bad this time though. It was worse when I accidentally deleted all of bee's msgs. LOL. Right now, it's like... "delete lor, anyway I already deleted those that I was so dying to keep."

These few trainings have been awesome. Minimum time, maximum energy. We were totally shocked when the group stunts ended aft 2 hrs of training. MAD HAPPY.

Watched Being Human on Friday with bee. Surprised him at Lot1 at 6.20pm. Heh. I was out to get medicated patches and to fix my shoes. No holes alr. HEHEHEH. I should take a picture of it so you'll know what I mean. :D Ok, back to the surprise. Headed to Tamp to fix shoes, walk around, bought nice korean sweets, spent like $100 at watsons. :/ Woman's money is the easiest to swindle dont you agree? When it's on beauty and fashion. Beauty especially. Trained all the way to CCK. I was half awake on the train. Tired cos I didnt have a good rest, at the same time, though I was seating down, the train's movements tend to move my head along with it too. LOL. If you know what I mean.

Walked around at Lot1, and controlled all my 'wants'. Pretty good job at Lot1 cos I didnt get anything. LOL. We were supposed to meet at my place as I was 'tired'. Come to think of it, it was a lousy surprise. I told him to call/text me when he reached Lot1 so that I can go prepare. But I'm supposed to meet him at my place right? So what's the rush. LOL. Whatever it is, he did text me when he reached Lot1. Heh. I was controlling my eyes on the number of blinks. All the botaks in half uniform, carrying big bags, and same colour. :p I was afraid my one blink will make him tap his card, and off to the escalator, heading to the train. But I caught him. :p hahahhhaha.

He went home to wash up and we headed to AMKHub. Heh. Wanted to go to town, but upon thinking that we'll be going town the next day, we decided on AMKHub instead. Walked around and all the queues were so long. Yea.. there's something with me and queuing for cafes/restaurants. The moment I see a queue outside the restaurant that I intended to dine, I'll just walk away finding another one. Heh. People tend to stay longer in cafes/restaurants after they finish eating, and it kinda irritates me when they dont settle their bill and go away, but sit there chit chatting. Of course, I'm one of those. Thus, I believe that queues technically means waiting for hours for your seats. And what if the food doesnt satisfy you? :/ We finally settled down in the foodcourt. HAHAHA.
We watched Beinh Human at 11pm+, walked to some place nearby his house and started chit chatting(: Cabbed home at 2.15am.

Bee came to fetch me at my house, and off we were to PS. Damn starhub. -.- Long story so I shall not elaborate. We were 20 counts to the queue number. Walked around and he had his medium size yami yoghurt. When I first got to know him, he didnt like them. We walked pass the yoghurt stall at taka, and they were promoting the yohghurt. I took the strawberry one and offered him some. He gave me the i-will-puke-if-i-eat-this face. He swallowed it though. And I dont know when he's yoghurt love started.
We even had time to train to cityhall, walked to marinasq to look at the movie timeslots, head back to ps. The timing was just right. Heh. Yea..we wanted to watch AliceInWonderLand3D at Marina cos of some discounts vouchers. That's why we made that very troublesome and time-consuming trip to marinasq.
PS and the Cathay were packed too. I then started to checked all the cinemas.. and they were ALL filled.
Dropped the idea of watching movie, so we voted for a nice long dinner. Thought of all the places that we'd once said we wanted to try, and finally picked the Greenhouse Cafe at 313. It wasn't the food but the ambience that lured us; me actually. :p I think it was initially a florist before it became a cafe. They had bouquet of flowers wrapped up nicely with bears, cards etc. The wooden polished tables with parallel long wooden sticks fasten together to shape the old school swing as chairs... makes me wanna sit on them. Unfortunately, there were no more swing seats when we reached. The service was not very good though, as we were served by an incoherent english speaking auntie. LOL.

Me: Ni you she me kou wei de ice cream? (What ice cream flavors do you have?)
Auntie: Wo men you hen duo. Ke shi yao kan li mian hai you mei you. (We have alot of flavors, but I must check what are available.)
Me: Na you she me zhong de? (What are the flavors you offer?)
Auntie: Corn.
......Awkward long pause........
Me: Hai you ma? (And?)
Auntie: Corn lo.
Me: -.- face
Auntie: Bu ran ni gen wo jiang ni xi huan chi shi me kou wei? (Or you can tell me what flavors you like?)
Me: -.-!!!
Auntie: Veyrina? Chocolate? Xi huan ma? (Veyrina? Chocolate? Do you like them?)
Me: Huh? Vanilla ar?
Auntie: Ok. Veyrina.

And she served me my VANILLA, and bee's corn. I should have said yes to corn cos it tasted 10x better them the veyrina. In the first place, I didnt even agree to her veyrina. ANGRY!
We both had the creamy vegetable soup which I thought it tasted good. Bee had Grilled Chicken in Mushroom sauce. The sauce was awfully luscious. The best mushroom sauce I've tasted so far. I had lasagne. Thumbs up too. The portion was so big that my tummy was totally bloated after eating 1/2 of it.
Chit chatted, walked around, rooftop garden, more chitchatting - most of the time me cos bee usually talk lesser after eating. :/ 14-ed home. Played with Shyen... watched cartoon with her while waiting for her parents to come fetch her. Heh. I dont usually watch the kinda cartoons that she watches. Like Thomas and friends, handy mandy etc, those in playhouse disney. Very nice cuzzy hor. :p I was afraid that she was lonely.

Thankfully, my workload did not piled up as I thought it would be due to my friday absence. *pheww.

Meeting Juneil and Paula later for dinner. AT IKEA. :D

Wednesday is Angel's Birthday Celebration.

Thursday I'm gonna take either half or a day leave. ClarrissaChong's 18th birthday which I just realised that I cant make it. SORRY. I've got training):

And then it's friday again! If only friday comes as fast as how I just typed it. :p

Stupid sis is going JAPAN on 18. GRRRRR. And she said she'll make it down to my compy): SHE BETTER MAKE A BABY THERE. HAHAHAHAHAH!

19022010

Ok, this is quite some time ago. :/ We caught late night movie at Cine. I forgot what though. Heh.

awesome; happy

Now, concistency is all I need.

BUSY):

I'm so busy i dont have time for the loo breaks. GOSH. Obviously, I'm trying to allow myself some time to breathe right now. I've never thought I'll be slogging like this. In fact, ever since I started, the workload waas not THIS MUCH. So much that I actually have to reject YongLe his work as I'm not farmiliar with it. I'm still picking up Christine's work. So many people came to me to pass me stuffs to do this morning that I could actually break down anytime. :/

CHRISTINEE!!!!!!!!

But I'm happy cos time ZOOMS. it's like 545 now. I've got mails to sort. Oh, furthermore, I've just changed stamp ink for the first time! HOHOHO.


Bye(:


Training will be fulfilling. I dont care. IMPROVEMENTS, CONCISTENCY - that's all I asked for.

Get out of me please):

Disappointments, distress, frustrations, discontentments, those let downs... just get lost. You are so affecting me. I am not conceding defeat, you stupid stunt.

But I'm feeling so -.- undescribable emotions that I cant control myself. I thought I'll be better after a night's rest.

Let me float away, please.

When you believe and fight hard for something, every detail makes you emotional - it's so close yet so far.