EXAMS ARE OVER. Ok, not exams, tests. Test to be exact cos I've only one paper. & i started to study on Tuesday night when the paper is on Thursday. I've a whole week to study but i didn't. Ok, i did. But it was just...not really memorising eh. Just the understanding part.
This is the first time I've studied with much difficulty. I've never understand why some people just cant study at home, claiming that there are distractions..etc. For so many years, I've finally realised it. The bed, the TV, the PC...and it was kinda weird cos I've never experienced this before. And my biggest and only distraction? BED. I don't really need the bed cos I can just fall asleep anywhere. Even after drinking mocha milo which didnt help a tiny bit as i fell straight asleep after gulping down the whole cup of it. Gary says that it could be due to my lack of sleep throughout this period. Seriously, I've never have this kinda problems before. Even if i was tired, i just need a 10-15 mins break and I'm all wind to press on for another 2 hours. I tried doing the 10-15 mins break thingy but instead, i woke up after 2 hours. :/ This means...i really need to sleep on time.
Anyway, I got myself good by studying outside. And this usually do not work for me at all unless subjects dealing with numbers. Supply Chain Management - involves understanding and memorising of millions of definitions. Studied with superman on Tuesday night and..I slept for half an hour after 1 hour of reading. LOL. Woke up, read more and superman diverted my attention to cheer. -.- he started drawing stickmen! He completed his and we waited for graham...walking aimlessly around amk hub.

and we had a 'competition' on our phone's camera. Mine is better. :p The thing here isn't actually about the resolution and quality of our camera but the words on this signboard. hah.
Forgot what we were talking about but what do you think of when you see this board?

LOL. andra in CHEEROBICS '08! LOL. Look at the leg. Still don't get it?



Ok, just that instead of the muscle-man pose he did, his hands are in the pockets cos the bean do not have any. :/

tomorrow(: MOVIE.

Caught the day the earth stood still just now with guangyu. LOL. impromptu, super. nice movie, awesome companion, reminiscing of the 'basketball period', great chat. it's another warning to save the earth! dinner & home. i reached home before 11pm. goody goody girl!

& now... I've abundance of pictures. Bear with me(: Let's start with the hospital ones..I've decided to post them up cos..it's my FIRST & i really it's e last admittance into the hospital. (Friends and relatives, DO NOT inform my parents k. I dont want them to worry. They are unaware about this. I'm fine now, dont worry. Jie & Miller knows about this.)

- i still have this, as my keychain. :p

i know i'm rough, but i didnt know that vigourous to make my drip comes out. I woke up and saw blood on my bed. & i thought i had my menses! I was worried and was thinking why the bloodstains were on the upper area of the bed and looking for the stains on my pants! :/ And then i saw blood on my had and covered the 'hole' with the tape.

i only stretched to take the cup and the table..LOL.

if you're thinking what's the big deal of having the drip coming out? Look at the needle. It's about 2-3cm long, inserted into the back of my hand. Anyway, there wasn't much pain as compared to the headaches.

and yea, no doubt, hospital food sucks. The breakfast was on par with baby's food. That's porridge with oats and small bits of carrots. :/

A live-nearby-kind-soul came and got me BK breakfast. And after munching half of the sandwich, i fell asleep. LOL. Lunch provided by the hospital was not bad though. Some chicken culet with pineapple sauce, vegetables, rice and dessert too.

I didnt know i werent allowed to leave my bed until my 'room mate' pointed this sign to me. :/ i couldnt stop laughing in my heart. LOL. the thunder thingy at the butt er....funny. i couldnt laugh out because the aunty opposite me had this sign too. & yea...that's one of the reason why i'm laughing.

I requested discharged because i had my SIP presentation the next day and the aunty opposite me is superrrr irritating. I'm sorry aunty but you are too unreasonable. Let's not talk about the 'room mates', or even the nurses. The doctors felt the same. :/

That's the whole...hospital experience. And now the random visuals.

- the new bottoms' designs.

- the after-training-fun.

- it's from a restaurant. best fried rice. not only the appearance, but taste too!

- i lost the thumbdrive))))):

- look at this!

- it's this when you see it in blue.


- & then this when you see it in red!

- wondering what is this? my mama shaking her backside. LOL. The accessories that she is wearing are shyen's. Shyen put it on for her and taught mama how to dance. Those were for shyen's dance performance. whahahah!

SISTERS' Gathering
We went some pub and then ktv at pungol end(:

- trust me, angel is not drunk.


- in conclusion, my flshlight is very powerful. LOL. :/


- i digged my wardrobe & found this tshirt. LOL. somebody gave it to me..our couple-T. LOL!!! Memories. Didnt know it was still in my collection of clothes. hah!

Have i posted this before? Nevermind, the modelling contest for kids. They are oh-so-cute-&-adorable-that-you-really-feel-like-hugging-them kids. Pretty and handsome children who are already VERY image conscious.

- the overall winner.

- he's the cutest, most handsome young boy! He's 4 and already cat-walking on runways. He laearned his 'route' on that day itself just 1 hour before the thing started.

the left girl cried when one of his brother didnt win anything): she cried VERY badly. crying till she vomit ok. the right one...her parents are f-ing rick. her mother treated me like a maid but in a very nice way lar. but maybe because of the way she asked me to help her do things which i'm not use to it.

- the costumes are their own.

there are altogether 3 mermaids.

they are the mini pageants

friendly and outgoing kids.


- this girl is the most zai one. She initiated to shake hands with me & larry. She's last year winner and had went for the world little ms pageant.

Ok, meeting larry at 11.15am for my 11.30am hospital appointment later. I think i san dao yao. BOOO): Time for tui-na.

Things to do:
Supply Chian Project
CRM Project
Cheer Meeting
Cheer Admin Stuffs
Technopreneurship Project Preparations
Supply Chain Case Study
Hospital Bills & Insurance
School Fees
Coach Issue*
Cheerobics 09 pre-preparations
GYM & TRAIN
train mid-tiers!!!

Target set: 2 elements

yay?

it's 6.5/10 now. it's still shit i know. but i really did my best),: i like the subject, however somehow, i dont like the theories as it requires much memorising & not understanding! :/ I love the project, but the time allocated is really limited. BOO!

mum, dad, sis & miller are leaving later at 4am. i was very happy to have the house by myself. BUT, saturday which is supposedly my 'free' day is occupied due to the standard chartered marathon - runspiration. anyway, catch blazers on ESPN on 7th Dec onwards((: oh, & there's a short interview too. If it is really out, pardon the sweaty + exhausted me & justin.
Having the house to myself means...i can come back home anytime!!!!!!!! :p yea, like as if i will cos i'll need my bed & PC. PC is the critical one.

i need to run, need to gym. i must start to squeeze out the time. i need a 24hr gym. do i? if there is really one around my estate, i'll have darker eye rings. :/ & instead of exercising to keep fit, i think i'll fall sick.

Things to do:
Supply Chain Term Test Revision,
Standard Chartered preparations - water, bananas, trashbags, papercups, cardboards, markers,
CCOMM job advertisment, resume,
Technopreneurship revision,
Supply Chain Management Project,
Customer Relationship Management Project
. . . . . .

this is what i think i have for now. gotta go pack my bag for tomorrow. i wana go out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stop giving me tasks

Hello hello. I did my damn techno online quiz yesterday & i scored 5.5 out of 10. That's the worst test i've ever done in my poly life. I've studied; a little i admit. But i cant seem to remember anything.. is there still something wrong or am i just trying to find excuses? ROAR.

anyway, i've been really bad at reading. Finishing a blogskin usually wont take me more than 8 hours. 8 hours include the editing of pictures etc. But i used up a day to finish the new blazer's blog skin. -.- i just coldnt sleep cos of the late lunch/dinner/supper yesterday...& yea...i havent had a wink. AGAIN.

& then again, guess how long did i take to finish a 1 page technopreneurship report? 2 days, approximately 12 hours. ZOMG.

oh, & i have problems waking up in the morning. i know i've said tt before but it's really really true. :/ i've put my alarm on repeat mode with the snooze at the interval of 3 mins, & no...i'm still not waking up. Even morning calls cant get me up at times. So how do i wake up in the morning? 3/4 of the time, i'm late. 1/4, i'll cab down.

has been really hectic ever since school started. time management in school work, cheer, work and different groups of friends. I hope i can be divided into parts...of course, still living.

very little time, lotsa work, lotsa commitments, lotsa responsibilities. I've also realised i've been a 'loner' this semester, having to rush from town to school, engine school to sports complex to SAA. The only time i'm not alone...is when i'm at work, during lessons, and trainings or meetings/discussions. oh...& sometimes when i reach home seeing my mum & sis still awake. it's not because i am alone, but basically, no time to find others to acc me to places cos time is so tight that i sometimes dont realise that i havent reply texts or pick up calls.

i cant wait for the holidays. i need a break. a movie will be good enough but i cant squeeze out time):

Damn it.
Supply Chain Management Test: 11th Dec 08, 0900-1100
Hospital Appointment: 11th Dec 08, 1130
I've to fly there after my test. i thought i could enjoy):

i wana go out nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

mine

Intense training, starts today.

You'll see the real me, the one i always wanted to be...soon(:
No time? You set your own, and it's the amount of willingness you want to put in.
Priority? Yea, study, cheerleading is the next. Because FYP ended.
Improvements? You'll see them soon; me.

Why do you make other people's problems your own?
Because they are my closest, and anything that affect my team, affects me.

ulu pandan

ulu pandan ulu pandan ulu pandan. it makes me hungry at first (pandan cake) and then... nvm. great performance by wildcards. They've been called wilcats for quite many times though. lol. Find wildcats familiar? High School Musical - Wildcats is he basketball team. Stunt fest was awesome. did a few cupies, single libs...etc. i forgot what else. thanks to many many people(:

gotta go complete my report now. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

that you

Happy Birthday to you.

long lost me

haven heard abt me for quite some times. ok, there were a few updates, but they are.....hmmm.

anyway, i'm getting better alr. hpt was nt as scary i thought it will be. BUTTT, the aunty opposite my bed is damn noisy lar! even the nurses cant stand her. she'll ask, "what's the time now?" every 3o mins to an hour. she'll call for the nurse for the slightest thing like putting the chair in frt of her. WTH! and the aunty slping beside her even exclaimed loudly "i think if you got maid, your maid will run away in just 2 days!"

i give my deepest sympathy, really. Bcos of her failing memory and age. but she is really demanding. when one of the aunty make her own milo, she said "why you make yourself? stay in bed lar, ask the nurses make for you." like as if the nurses owe her anything?

oh, & my knee had been better. at least e pain is diminishing, almost indiscernible. shall go for xray soon. i'm wondering now how many xrays have i taken. fortunately, there's our school's insurance.(: i'm gonna start learning my jumps all over again!!

ok, i realised tat i've tons of videos, photos to upload. till then. (:

time to change skin!

funny why i still miss you.

michielovesblazers` failing memory): says:
who can i blame? myself...for having too much expectations....maybe?
-Missysho0- smile =) says:
y always blame urself
-Missysho0- smile =) says:
perhaps he do not hav feelings for u .. but is bcos he cannot bear to leave

1 year, 4 days. counting till this feeling ends. will it?

before

i thought that yall are my closest. I thought that yall will be here. I thought.....yes, NOW I MAKE AN ASS OUT OF U & ME. i'm not angry, but the feeling inside, i just dont know how to use words to describe. let's see, just utterly dissappointed. I'm trying VERY hard to be understanding.

&, erm.. ken, i never thought of not wanting to see you. i never thought of not wanting you to visit me. you are a friend. once a close one. Yes i dont like quarrels, who does? But if there's a need, i guess everybody will still do. Quarrels often happen within couples? No, close friends too if you realise. But once everything is cleared, a new friendship develops.

Many thanks to Graham, ZhiLiang, Andra, Christine, Larry's concern. I really appreciate yall. And 3 of you, I've known you only to the coming 9th months.

the inner most

why am i at home?
bcos i was rushing projectS.
bcos i have undone cheer stuffs.
bcos i slept, oh ho...rested at 7.20am & hav to prepare at 7.45am.
bcos my head is still hurting.
bcos i stand up seeing patches.
bcos i read in MSword at least 200%.
bcos of gastric pain.
bcos my head is spinning.

why am i not in the HPT?
bcos i wanna finish my FYP ppt with my group.
bcos i wanna spend more time at home 1st.
bcos i'm freaking scared.

have i told my parents?
so sorry but no.

why?
bcos i dont want to make them worry.
bcos i hate making anyone worry for my retardness
bcos i wanna be independent & take care of myself
bcos i really dont want people to know
bcos i dont want anybody to keep asking if i'm alright
bcos i'm scared.
bcos i am a strong girl.

have i told anyone else?
elder sister bcos i need someone 21 years above and related to me for supervision for admittance.
poh bcos he is full of experience with concussions.
larry, justin, xueli, ken bcos i feel they they ought to know; & will take care of the safety in e team.
suhui, bryan bcos they asked?
kyle and melissa bcos i was asking about the claims.
sarah, samantha, angel, peixia, joy, cherylteo, christine, nadiah...do i need to say more?
graham bcos he acc-ed me for e 1st visit.
zhiliang bcos the rest were talking about it in front of him.
mrs keong bcos......she is my coach & there's a hushhush between us.
melvinheng, sharon, kunrong, xiaoni, kinghung...groupmates. & i didnt appear for Technopreneurship PPT this morning.
silas, i dont know why.

& erm, dont assume stuffs. you'll just be making an ASS out of U and ME. I'll tell you if you ask...nono, if I think that i can . & what's my 'think' criteria? "you wont be agitated and think in my shoes why i didnt tell you by myself."

i see a retarded me.

i still went to school eventhough i had 6 days mc, from friday to wednesday. I still wenta work on weekends with 3/4 of the time sitting down. i rush for assignments everyday till wee hours; catching a rest at 2am earliest and i can dont even sleep. i hate year 3. i hate it. i wanna stop working for now but i dare not breathe a word to my aunty cos i'm creating troubles for her. i want to continue working bcos of the damn economic crisis and i dont want to rely on dad for money bcos he himself neesd it to. I pray and plead that mum can stop gambling. I...RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
i love blazers, but sadly, blazers dont. i keep things to myself or walk away bcos i feel that quarrels might surface and i dont think it'll solve anything, but again, nobody knows and instead, i'm seen as a coward. I protect juniors because i rather face the blame than having them to suffer in shoutings, insults and sarcarstic remarks. I've done DAMN loads for Blazers, but does Blazers appreciate? I've sacrificed even my results for Blazers but now i feel that it's a waste. Whatever it is, i love Blazers, i love to Cheer.
And i still have to go back to school to hand in Blazers stuffs before going to the hpt. HAHA.
Once again, i stress that i still LOVE Blazers.

can somebody lend me their lappie later in e hpt, for a day? can somebody accompany me throughout the stay? my sis is working the next morning and i want her to go home and rest instead of staying with me and worrying most of the time.

'STRESS over assignment, life. when will i have a break?? the day i step into my coffin?'
- melvinheng

:/

Wife is like television (TV), girlfriend is like handphone (HP).

At home watch TV, go out bring HP.

No money, sell TV. Got money, change HP.

Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with HP/

TV is free to watch; but HP, if you don't pay, services will be terminated!!

TV is big, ugly, bulky but still can watch when old; HP is slim, curvy, portable but there is always a newer and nicer model.

sat & sun updates

went to denise's chalet before proceeding to graham's. 2 chalets, both in different parts of pasir ris. Met gary & we cabbed to denise's. Just in time for her to cut cake. Yea, her party started at 6.30 & we reached at 9.30? :/ my bad, so i treated gary for the transport. PS: we took 2 cabs. heh. after millions of years, i finally get to see ben. however we didnt chat much as there were many photo sessions. & when it kinda stopped, gary & I decided to leave to graham's. sorry bros, will meetup alright.
Cabbed from costa to elias. I felt damn dumb walking pass graham's chalet & walked out of that area, thinking tt we were lost. I bet gary felt the same too. Anyway, i thought tt there will be a number of unfarmiliar cheerleaders but i was wrong. Same people doing the 'stunt' fest...but this time instead of amy, simin was made the kangkong. Andra, zl, jen, chaang, xw, zm & gf (eye power), king( i scared i spell his name wrongly), graham, ken, gary, simin, me. After the stunt fest, was so proud of simin & myself. Though it was just for pure fun & entertainment, but personally, i didnt know that i could do a lib or a cupie. Oh...& of cos, one of the greatest satisfaction is.....ken is able to tth me. HAH. ok, we'd passed the dateline long time ago but at least we managed to do it...impromptu-ly.
i thank yall sincerely from the bottom of my heart. It may seem nothing as yall have did it a billion zillion times, but it matters to me cos it's my first!!! heh heh. ok, i'd done my tth with zl before and that was like in may? & tt's like e only successful ones. hello, it's ZL; known for his erm....'mother fucking strength' like what chaang always say? hah. Credits to chaang for ex-lib & zl for cupie. & i swear i didnt know i was on only one hand when he did the cupie until the rest were "ccb-ing & fuck-ing" him. I looked down & "omg!" before e dismount. Of course, not forgetting the rest who tossed & those who 'forced' me to change shoes. I have no intentions to stunt as i was freaking exhausted.
After bath, wanted to sleep but graham shook me up. tt's not all, he pressed all my blue-blacks which cramps my face, but there's one thing that he did gd though...the massage. haha. played a few card games & by the time we started 'dai di', my brain wasnt working. somebody, whom i forgot who, took over for me & i rested....& wnt into quite deep sleep at 4.30am.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE & GRAHAM!

Perf for the newspaper big walk was next at 9am, making us leave at 7.30am. the crowd was not as enthusiastic compared to the hsm. awful gastric problems which i'm still wondering why as i had my breadtalk's sandwich & orange juice. lunched at swensens & i was stoning while eating. my mind was clear, clean, totally blank. Headed for work straight & did nothing at the counter but still a number of sales. If i was awake, i could have reached at least $2000! But i'd rather not do anything cos i was really dyingggggggggg.

I'm supposed to complete my SUPCHN tut but i miss blogging): there's so much more i wana talk about...
Friday forgetting work & went to get presents, sisters gathering, halloween, etc etc.

ok, my head is spinning & i'm meeting mr cupie-simin-longest-man (25.7s) later at np at 10am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRA!